Collecting back Myself

i screwed my maths test today
great....
econs was rather weird..
i think mrs sim was just happy that i could list some of the key word.. and let me passed..
which is not very good....
the stress management part of the ct period was a enriching session
somehow i realised that i lose control of myself this year..
and im going to pull myself back from the place i not suppose to be in..
talked about relationships too
respect and understanding..
hmm..
and types of love wow.. thats new.. and useful to all i believe..
aiya.. just very enriching for me la


tomorrow is shooting camp
looking forward to it..
hopefully everyone can be bonded
hoho

aud drew this picture on her hand..

she tot that it really look like a 'thing' and not a drawing..
haha
what do you think?

went home early today..
its my mum's bday..
took a bloody hour to reach home..
and cleared of everything on my mind and wished her happy birthday..
her smile was all i needed
i dont know why theres this fear of such moves in me..
just dont dare to say mushy words to my parents..
or hug and kiss them automatically..
hai..
nevertheless.. this is a good step i had taken
C:

the sunset today was brilliant
snap it on my way out of the college..
shuchen and shinie was admiring it too

the cam sucks..
the cloud should be in bright orange colour


caught by mr kok on wednesday morning..
a wave and he asked, "so are you still working towards your dream?? figher pilot??"
i think i impressed him with my answer...
shared with him about the focus on shooting in this point of time too
nusis in june and nationals in july..
im feeling the gold coming..
i still believe in that

i was in a blank during the gp timed assignment on tuesday STAR period..

for 5 mins..

just looking at the clock of lt5

thinking why am i doing all this..

i was so tired...

didnt even touched the AQ..

i broke down yesterday..
though there isnt much of a homework issue..
i was tired.. very tired.. in almost all aspect
but
just by hearing her voice..
i felt a sudden relief of everything..
thanks dear :8

later

Lets see...

night of the 15th..
full moon..
how peaceful it was..


bintan?
bali?
perth?
taipei?
hongkong?
kl?
the four of us discussing where to go this december..
haha
raymond darren chevy and i went to fengshan 85 yesterday night until this morning 2am for supper
raymond going for his clt course and wont be free for 3 weeks..
so decided to go meet up
the food was great..
stingray with the busting hot chilli
bbq wings with lime juice and one bowl of minced meal noodle..
one cup of ice teh
hoho
whats more to ask for..
after everything.. raymond sent us home haha
and oh.. chevy went for the match singapore vs australia in kallang ..
what the hell man..
bo jio one know..


i had been having this little trouble...
i failed my gp..
great!..
if you guys know me well enough you will know even if the rest of the subject i go all A im still doomed..
because of the fact that my parents only look at gp.
AHHH!!!
i dont know how to tell my parents man..
just wait for the result slip ba..
haha


read the lastest teenager magazine about bff...
haha
i thought of jun liang straight..
i think thats very obvious right?
bff is great
having him as a bff is extremely great
no matter how sad or mood swing am i..
just one sound from him will dissolve any problem in my mind..
thanks friend..



tonight is a big night..
the matches tonight will be the result for the league for this season..
my ideal results will of cos be liverpool and chelsea winning...
but theres some much viewpoints in the papers...
haha..
so in reality...
REALITY!!!
i dont know..
we shell see it tonight..
AHH!! i cant watch! shit man..
gonna find a way to watch it man..
CHELSEA ALL THE WAY MAN!!!
for the seldom times...
LIVERPOOL JIA YOU TOO!
haha
im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


later

Long weekends

5A

we posted bloody long just to take this picture..
haha

went to have lunch yesterday at roxy hotel
had a little fight with dear before that..
went massage with mum bro and dear after lunch..
i had tui na..
damn song la..
dear was complaining that her aroma was too painful...
haha...
saw zhouying at the orchard mrt while sending dear home..
she ran away after i talked to her..
i was like what the hell?
lol


it has been a long time since i really read people's blog..
getting people's thoughts on an issue is really good for gp i believe.. haha
read difference's one..
she said that we always have to choose reality over passion.
well.. whats more to say about this..
its reality reality and reality..
whats the concept of real? this can link to the matrix trilogy man..
haha



this 3 days break will be a suffering session for me man
yasvitm
later

Reactions

did the organic chem yesterday...

got a silver mirror after reacting the tollens' reagent..

damn cool..

after school today..
my brain was like dead...
cant take it anymore...
so i went home straight..
hours and hours of pumping in of informations theory concepts
i really cannot make it man..
wa..


new j1s will be joining us for training tomorrow
hope they are all easy-to-make-friends type of people
haha


gp assignment tomorrow..
goodness..
later

A change in the word used

i guess i finally figured out the word..
the word that will represent my desire...
i have been using 'loner' or 'lonely' or 'alone'..
those words somehow dont correspond to what i have in mind..
just now while i was eating a table of food by myself..
and realise the word
"independence"
haha
was thinking of the idea darren bought up several days ago in my tagbroad..
well.. i guess i am kind of sudden influenced by american's culture
to live life independently
living in a small room everyday
schooling
back home cook myself dinner
wash my own clothes and uniform
sleeping and waking up on time for the next day
yet not sacrificing any lose in relationship with family
and having a good social life..
i guess thats what i really desire...
and not being a loner..
its an enlightenment i guess

C:
later

Qing Ming

went father's side ancestor's place to pay respect
its qing ming again..
no wonder the rain hasnt stop for days

anyway i saw mr yang with his family while paying my respect
i didnt know he is a hakha too
haha
such a coincidence
saw his family too

was talking with my brother to my cousins
sudden a crazy idea of making a website for the place came out
ah jin suggested to be name as seiokimzi.com
haha
had a funny thing while talking about that sinful idea
which was kind of bad and disrespectful

tomorrow is a new term
very reluctant to start my momentum again...
but i dont think i will not start..
a level is the key
with that key
many doors can be opened
but the difficulty of the task of opening the door will start counting now
so work hard!

well well
my gugu came down my house yesterday and told me something
she told me that my cousin.. who is her daughter heard from her teacher something
something about me
haha
gugu told me that the teacher mentioned me during some assembly period to the sec 4
told the graduating class people that there was once a top sec 5 student that is studying in srjc now and taking the a level examination this year
she also said that i has a girlfriend since sec 2 and still going well in the relationship
haha
i think that teacher is ms shek
im so proud to have left a legacy in bedok south..
hope i can find some time to go back to bds and talk to the graduating class students
i miss my secondary school life seriously man

i think many of you guy now feeling demoralised
h2 chemistry failed badly..
hearing that the h2 math cohort have only 10% passes
the top 10 10th place in h2 physic failed
what else to come?
i say this to everyone
its better to fail now than to fail during a levels
every failure acts only like a wake up call
the matter here is whether you pick up this call and do something about it
escaping for the fact is never good or neutral
face it and fight
i dont see a person who promoted to j2 and failed all exams and end up getting into a local university have a good a level cert as a miracle
but rather to think that this person wakes up at the last wake up call and chiong with the sufficient time he has
its march now and i say its still early to start answering the call

school is starting again..
stress is going to be built up fast and great
control your thinking..

many people always ask me why everyone is reading their notes and im not when we are just going into the examination hall
i said im prepared... even if im not
this kind of mind set restrict my mind from going else where
haha some trick to the mind i guess
and oh...
i do feel stress up looking at everyone mugging last minute..
thats when i want to really walk away and clear my mind
clearing my mind makes me difficult to answer even the simplest questions you can ask
whats 1 the power of 6... i'll answer 6.. because i dont want to think..

2 more essays to complete..
WA!!!
3 days to deadline..
still long la.. lol

later

Mixed Up

haven been blogging since..
so gonna blog now

had a good time catching up with some of my 5A classmates during the bbq session last sunday
and wonderful time with my buddies
drinking chivas whikey and other wines la
haha
i think the most interesting part of this is that the group of guy when out to get some bites..
and halfway we got look at the really ahgua lol

went back to school for lessons today
maths...
first time the lecturer say is that our common test results
90% failed...
damn shocking
i hope i will be in the 10% ...
well...
after maths probability
chemistry
lecturer chionged the carboxylic acid lecture
and rushed into the next topic..
damn fast

30mins break and continue the chemistry part on the common test..
gone through the common test answers
and then returned as our paper
the scripts are arranged by merit
sheena ... as usual got the first call by mr yang
i was just behind but 12 percentage point behind
haha
i was damn happy
but the happiness sank deeply when jun liang was the last to be called..
i went complete speechless
all i can say is that never to give up

zhou ying caught me while i was going for training...
she cried terribly
and told me she only got 14%
i dont know what else to say too
just offered my tissue and future consultation if she needs

work hard people...
and of cos the smart way..
if you need some smart way to studies...
perhaps i can help..

shooting was damn good today..
i felt completely on form..
completely normal..
except at the start when my legs are vibrating strongly..

i complete my 3 series of 95 in 4 series...
hoho...
its really fast...

 

 

holiday seems just started...
but already ended...
6 econs essay due less than a week time
great!

need to chiong now..
later

Release of 2007 'A' Level Results

witnessed the release of the a level results for the previous badge of student just now
when the screen was changed..
i saw the top student of arts
its jessica!
i was like omg!!!
haha
lennon trendy and amelia was around me..
they had their doubt again
haha but somehow i was damn happy to see her there
being to successful
i cheered really loudly when she went up the stage
haha
she did shooting club proud
principal said.. she got the bullseye
wonderful

i got b for chinese and i think its expected
but i cant believe my oral was just a pass
AH!!!
its pissing me man..
but well
i have already got over with it
so no big deal haha
as for my classmates and friends
i think mostly got their fair share and score as they desired
theres nothing to be sad about this seriously..
we not talking about no future by not getting A for this subject right?

physic paper is over
so do the common test
its time again to meet up with my fellow bds buddies
haha chalet at changi will be another fun time together
hoho

soccer with junliang and some other guys from different classes
its bad..
i cant even control the ball for 3 secs..
its bad....

training after soccer
was ok.. but just imagine my mind is that tired that my eyes can auto close while taking a shot
now thats dangerous man
haha
stop training after 5 series

after everything..
10 of us when to hongkong cafe for dinner
there wasnt enough seat so we decided to go heartland mall so sit down and wait for them to call
haha
had a good time with my team..
i hope that the team spirit will continue to pass down to other badges of the club..

jun liang said im a gay...
im hurt man... lol

Testing Out

this is posted using the new windows live writer...
its kinda cool man.. hoho

Free Day

woke up in the morning feeling good..
went ahead to the swimming complex and with all stuff prepared..
lie on the chair..
i took out my suntan cream..
its empty...
SIANSSSS
well not very bad also
cos the sun is hidding..
and it bloody hell dont want to come out
lay there for one + hours
and decided to swim
wind was blowing strong...
water felt cold like ice
felt like 'the guardian' so some seconds lol
i wrapped my goggles around my head and it just came off..
the rubber torn away
GREAT
haha
my stamina has dropped
i could usually complete one lap with 4 breath..
when i tried it again today..
i needed 5 breaths
shit man..
anyway
the sun came out when i left the pool
SUPER
lol
reached home
went mac for lunch..
carried an umbrella from home as it was raining heavily..
by the time i walk out of mac..
rain stopped..
and i carried all the way to school and back home again
WOW



shooting was bad today
i think i spent too much energy while swimming..
shot 13 series man
only one serie passed
sad

mr ng asked me..
so how hard am i going to work...
i said... what can i say?
he reply
as hard as i can
and that should be my mentality from now on

tonight chelsea going for champions league and tomorrow i no school
finally a true thing to be happy about
C:
later

Common Test eve

Leap Years... a beautifully filmed movie based on singaporean writer Catherine Lim..
very nice show
go watch it
have the feel of love haha

before i know it
the day has past
feb 29..
haha
i didnt know theres a tradition on this day
a guy must accept a girl's proposal on this special day
hmm...
haha
the show also mention that the most commonly used word in love letters is 'miss' and not 'love'
after the show... i can really appreciate the meaning man..
haha


i think this common test is going to be a goner for me
haha
i didnt really touch econs recently
and last week the syllbus is still going
this will be one of the unprepared common test im going conquer
haha

to all my buddies classmates shooters and friends
jia you!

later