Road to recovery

Life will not be that easy for me after the surgery today
My acl reconstructure was performed and it went smoothly
Mother and dear was with me all the way. So much thanks to them
Not forgetting many msgs from friends too. I ask dear to take a photo for me of myself to let me remember of this pain that i current suffer. So as to remind myself to constantly becareful when doing sports in the future
I am positive and i will be back in action soon. I will be persistent and be at my top during all physios.
I can. I will. I do. Hooyah!
Nothing stands in my way!

A People Person

its 9+ am and i was on my screen watching Good Morning Singapore this morning
it was a special kind of feeling watching my brother in the tv instead of beside me infront of it
he was awarded PAYM's Individual Award (Meritorious)
an award only given to 8 individuals among thousands of youth leaders
very prestigious indeed
i believe my father would be so proud as my mother was when she watched the 17 mins video of Good Morning Singapore with me a moment earlier

Techie me

i rearranged my desk again as my brother doesnt use the house desktop frequently

so now my desk have one pc and one mac with total of 3 monitors

cool shit

used some time to fix everything together

imac still have its external monitor.. but now a bigger one

finally decided to dissemble the first computer's cpu that we have got in this house

then started to look into things that can be made from a cpu

but i didnt really turn out good for now as those stuff needed more items and equipments to ensemble

did successfully make a usb fan from a cpu power supply

haha

New year.

Its finally 2011.
I spent the last moment of 2010 with my family. Its was just nice. Not even a celebration. Just the three of us looking over the window, trying to catch the high bit of fireworks over at the floating platform's sky. Simple. And enjoyable.

So sorry for my shooters who asked me out. I realise how much time i was outside during all those time when im attached. Didnt notice that im missing out my time at home. Im not emo. Just want to spend more of these festive season with my family.

2011 will be another challenging year. Or half a year. NTU is the place that i will call home really soon. The journey there will so uncertain from now. As all future la actually haha

Went to visit the 31 class blog. And there was this count down timer. Off to ORD in 17 days. Hahaha. Its get faster and faster when the number gets smaller dont you think. On jan 17. We will be saying wtf. So this is our 1 year 10 months? Oh man. What words can explain that feeling?

Little happy moments VS Tough assdragging shits

roar roar rooaaaarrrrr
its too quite here..
gonna add some live in it..
i have decided.. no SF for me..
NTU after NDU lo! wahahahahahahahahhahhaha

the whole of last month..
i experience alot of things that i cannot say in blog..
maybe becos it have too big a consequence that i cannot manage..
well well.. but no matter how sucks my life can be..
there is always the sweet part..
there was a job well done in SAF parade.. when Diver = Navy
there was our batch’s officers commissioning and return to be our leaders
there was shern’s birthday and finally.. the 5 of us got to meet up together again..
there were my secondary school buddies all botak hahaha
there was my mother and aunt coming to see me march on NDP 2010 GOH Navy
there was a wonderful night sky on the particular day.. i was a Draco constellation with Ursa major.. and i tot of the moments in fort canning with the Orion constellation
it was a very tough month for me..
but some of these few good times were what it takes to relight the fire in me..
slacking in day in day out … life have been much draggy..
too much to drag in fact.. haha..


events to come…
my cousin’s wedding is coming later..
my brother’s NUS graduation finally…
more and more parades to come… more fire to burn..
more and more dry runs..
more and more dives.. more water to pour
JOT to complete
and more important on individual level…
RSN Shooting competition..
i really hope my form will come and claim i really meant to get
hopeful to be in the Navy team again.. and the SAFSA inter formation shoot
I WANT THE SAFSA ASSOCIATE MEMBERSHIP!!!
some how Trap shooting sounds cooler then air rifle shooting.. hahha.. but thats not the point..
the feeling of hitting a flying clay VS a 10.9 on the target.. well.. i think i like the first more
may the assdragger go have more rest! Hooyah

Repetition

it has been weeks..
i still haven draw my diving equipment..
good and bad..
just need to sit one side while others are snorkeling
but its just too boring liao la..
haha
well well…
i got myself a physio on my right shoulder..
its an injury from tamworth .. playing tennis with dom they all..
haha..
i was considering if i would want to report sick for it..
after much of it.. i reported cos it has affected my sleep…
when my sleep is already so sad
a talk with my physiotherapist.. he suggested me to take on some light drugs so as to improve my sleeping..
but how can i do that when im in NDU…
maybe 1 month before ORD i would go report.. and find some specialist or some sort one to help my sleep
physio in MMI was fast..
and MMI happen to be around NUS..
just as i was thinking who in SR when to NUS..
i saw Sheena walking to cross the road then towards me..
but didnt have the chance to chat a little.. cos her parents was there to drive her off..
haha.. what a nice timing..

my batch did a FMP on thursday..
cut the preparation and all..
i was a little surprise during the debrief..
perm staff didnt say much…
just a “job well done guys”..
dont know about the others.. but im proud to be part of you guys la..
maybe the only thing we suck in is our discipline issue aside la..
oh man..
this coming week will be all parade rehearsals then the final ceremony
then good friday lo..
dont know if im marching..
hope i can secure my No.1 fast
Friday was weiming’s last day with us..
he is going SF le…
i think he will fit just nice down there..
and i would tell my friends i got a friend in SF leh! haha

dear is having her grad show in suntec..
as of yesterday she got a namecard already..
pity for her.. she wasnt around to receive it herself…
last day of the show today..
gonna go take a look later on..
hope the best her.. and best to secure her career in her area of education..
if not her poly life would just be wasted in my opinion..

2 weeks ago..
shooting had a camp in school.. so we the senior went back for a gathering..
had a little bit a food…
bought myself my honeydew sago at the frequent hangout coffee shop of SRJCians..
had a chat with Mrs Christiana Tan.. she is having her second baby already.. haha..
envy her la..
good career good life…
the school has changed so much..
until a point that i feel excited to go back school to study imagining im still in SR
but i know.. human are piece of shit one la..
students now wont appreciate it.. sad

so its 27 march again..
its my mother’s birthday..
my father death anniversary on the English calender..
was in Ray house when i was so down and thinking why do i have this weird sad feeling..
i think think think think think..
cant get a conclusion until i saw the date on my handphone.. 26march 11pm
i felt like i just lost him all over again…
images came pouring in…
cannot really join in the fun with my buddies playing dota and the other maps..
hai…
i was pretty shock when Mrs Mah smsed me later the day..
she is so kind to remember this date.. felt so fortunate to have her my teacher
thank you very much Mrs Mah C:


hooray!

For a Quiet while

Flying is fun
learning how to fly is tough.. especially when you are getting tax payers money.. haha
on the route of learning how to fly.. there many difficult moments for me..
i dont know.. just actually how i manage to screw those important moments in my life..
yea.. my dream is to be a pilot..
now that im out..
i felt im kind of lost..
because all my life is mainly to be a pilot.. pilot…… pilot………
SIA the next choice? maybe?
who knows..
now.. the more im into piloting..
the more i get impress with pilots..
the attributes they have really makes me jealous.. haha
i can fly.. just that i cant fly well enough..
with the stress of instructor … i will admin that i went haywire man..
just not good enough ba..
been here tried it..
no regrets..
i may or may not fly again..
but those lessons of these instructors will stay within me..
always..
i wish the rest surviving in 01/10 all the best.. C:


back to Singapore.. received my dearest mum brother and dear..
nowhere makes me felt like home except home.. really..
but as much i like home.. here also put me into the reality..
i have failed.. and have to go back to NDU..
got the news.. no wso chance for me.. only kelly..
oh well.. my feeling is like stirring around ..
dont know how to feel exactly…

life will be abit more lonely now..
dear have to study until graduation..
ndu guys in unit..
jc friends busy in uni.. and their respective units..
poly friends got their part to do for graduations too..
looking around.. its like.. im on my own..
haha..
i want to getaway get for awhile..
hmm
later

Need a breather

its Christmas period..
and the New Year 2010 is within days of reach..
shortly after the new year will be my departure date..
most likely an A380..
and there will be stress and pain everything in Australia..
as always.. im very positive of myself.. that i will be able to pass this course..
but sometimes you just never know..
for the next moment i may just cried out loud somewhere no one knows..
thats real painful..
for all of the pilot trainees going for the same AGC will understand that i suppose
life after AGC wont be easy too.. so there are much to come.
but AGC first..
Aviation!?… i think for me… its still Hooyah! for now..
i misses the NDU culture..
Air Force culture is so ………
maybe its just me that is slutty that why hahaha..
but well.. who wont want a place where everyone can be a buddy with you..
and talking about being regimental..
no unit can compare to NDU man.. its just lovely la..
im going to pass this AGC la!!!
 
its end of year.. and its so much of a festive season..
my mood is just low low low low low and low
the thought of going overseas for this AGC makes me anxious.. excited… stressed.. and scare
so many things thats in my mind..
my Mother.. my dear.. my future..
but again… this is life ba.. you just have to suck it up..
time is so much of the essence now..
whenever im free. i just want to relax not do anything at all..
or just go lie down somewhere and look at the stars.
hai..
im low~

my Brother and Mother going Malaysia with Mr Zainul and the RC for 3 days 2 nights..
im all alone for the duration at home.. woohoo..
the kitchen will so fun!
the my day may end up in the toilet.. haha..
thought i could spend the boxing day with my shooting mates.. but sadly
its on 2 Jan already…
cant go for the shooting gathering..
cant go for jun liang’s birthday party..
shity..

hai my way to sleep

Lets Haywire ba, Wo-who!

went for some Dragon Boating event today morning..
i never did any dragon boating before this but i thought it should be similar to the boat paddling we did in NDU
i was right.. just that the IBS dont rock and roll some much compared to the dragon boat
here is the Team Eunos


i was the last man for the boat.. paddling of cos.. not the standing one..

but before that.. i was another boat’s drummer…
it was all just for fun.. since i really didnt touch a drum before…
hahaha
while paddling.. it reminded me of those time in NDU where my boat always cant paddle as one.. and got hammered most of the time when it comes to boat paddling… haha those were the time

SOF was to Simpang Bedok
as usual.. we were having sex publically with those delights we ordered..
that really is how we enjoy these foods man.. hahaha..
siz siz siz… wow~ thats sex!
well well.. this may be the last time im going SOF with the group..
it maybe 16.. maybe 23.. i have no idea…
went to Paya Lebar to do the Hell week shirt with Jared and Sean yesterday.. hope the result of the shirt will be nice..
after that.. went to Marina Square with the group to hunt down The Dress for The Event..
Terry gave mercy for those shop we entered by not bringing down the shops



went to meet up with the Mids guys..
but damnit Shern ps us.. nice one man..
Tuesday you will know..
continue with shopping after the lunch
and it was Tiong and Terry again.. with Nat and Boshen stuck in River Island and chop the last 4 dressing room for ourselves..
guys! we are selfish piece of shit la..
lol.. nono.. we are divers la.. change without closing the door one.. lol!
11 is coming..
14 is coming too..
and 16 also….
i hope i can end my Diver Life with a Bang..
pray for good weather on Wednesday guys! C:

“Red Tails” Tail

booked out successfully on Friday..
went home and had quite a good sleep..
after so much of lack of sleep..
sleeping anywhere is just heaven
went to The Chevrons with Jun Liang..
it was quite a long while since i last seen him when we were back in college for our results..
we had a Commando and Diver sharing..
both called as elite soliders.. but are both of much different life..
but there are similarities too..
both are full of risk..
he himself almost paid his life while serving in the 1st Battalion
few hours of chat between us..
then we parted ..
before he dropped off at his station..
he handed me this plane model of P-51C MUSTANG “Red Tails”

and he told me it was meant to serve a reminder for me to stay..
the the story behind the red tail was that all planes with the red tails were pilot by the Blacks during war time in the past..
although the Blacks were being looked down on.. they were the best pilots in America in the period and many battles won because of them..
he wanted to give it to me when my father just passed away back in March.. but just have no time to meet up with me..
im truely thankfully touched
my uncle came just now to “renovate” my Mother’s room abit..
much stuff have been cleared out of the room..
i went in after everything and i even hear the echo of my footstep..
hahaha.. its quite amazing yea..
its officially 3 weeks to graduation on paper…
we got 1500mins to clock…
the Deep.. and then finally our Graduation Day..
fired up guys.. the end of a naval diver trainee piece of shit life is going to end soon..
HMS.. we jumping down soon yo!

Hooyah 31!!!

Time

its has been long..
and quite a few things happened over this time..
Dive Phase is such a time when our endurence are still being tested..
from preparations to securing all our equipments.. time dont seem to be enough..
and when we got the chance to hit our bed..
we have to settle all the wrong things we have done before we are allowed to rest...
besides dealing with the midnight hammerings..
weekends seems to bloody short and precious..

the whole batch got a confinement because our bunk was in shitty conditions..
for me.. i thought it was ok.. but i'll be missing my Da Vinci musuem visit..
but the next thing i know..
i'll be able to book out..
due to the departure of my grandma..
at her age of 87.. at her wake.. i saw people who i never see before..
who are her Descendants..
a total of 5 generation was present at her wake..
and after the 5 days of her wake..
she was buried in Chao Chu Kang..

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=103558&id=564163213&ref=mf

photos by my cousin

When the Going gets Tough,

The Tough gets Going
i think i still can suck it up big times...
im tough..
in fact.. we are very tough..
we went through so much shit already..
i think its time to say, "Chey.. like that only ah.. nothing la.."

few months more only..
few months..

Happy Mother’s Day

I am the Special Breed

this was taken by my brother on 18 march..
its a candid shot which i tot was really brilliant
The Only Easy Day was Yesterday, by the Navy SEALS
there are more difficult times coming my way..
and i will conquer and breakthrough
9 months!
just WAIT!

I love you, father!

My father went off at 0332 hours on 27 March
Funeral is done and finished this afternoon
I was in the camp for 8 days and never had the chance to let him see how i look without hair on my head
The Taxi driver was understanding enough to help me in reaching SGH in the fastest time
But still, I was just too late
From Friday until today..
i went through many many ups and downs..
There are a lot of things.. still not being done before my father passed away
thinking of those things that he promised to do, makes me really upset
Since secondary 2.. when i dropped into the Normal Academic Stream..
my aim is to make my parents proud..
bit by bit..
i tried harder and harder..
o levels
a levels
shooting
and now diver
i will work even harder now with him in my heart
Tears for my beloved father

Thanks to all relatives, friends, teachers and my bmt divers… for all your contributions

SINchalet

Friday..
met up with Raymond and Roslin to buy our bbq stuff..
then Ray drove us to Aloha Loyang Bungalow 13
the check in time was 3pm..
Ray thought is was 2pm..
and he needs to go back BDS for his NCC stuff..
we went in the Bungalow without checking in at first..
only Roslin and i..
our stuff is all inside.. waiting for 3pm..
so we searched out Chinese Chess..
obviously i own her.. haha
and the loser was set to go to the reception which was quite far away
before i could win the first game in the bungalow..
the staff of the chalet came in and invited us out of the perimeter..
game restarted outside the bungalow.. on the road side..
still… i won..
bbq started.. and group by group they come..
but as always.. there will be those who we lost contact and those who never want to associate with us anymore..
had a good time catching up with some of them..
after the bbq..
past midnight..
the leftovers gathered round the table..
and we had a SINchalet……
…………………
lights out at 4+am..
10am.. we woke up..
Sherman drove Raymond Darren Chevy and i to some fish farm that we is currently working at..
and some other fish farm because he wanted to buy some fish..
it is around Pasir Ris..
Dear and Roslin had their beauty sleep


we came across this fish farm..
there is a small pond for prawning..
and another big pond for fishing..
we were attracted to a young lady at her 20s
having a hard time with the hooked fish..
5mins… 10.. 15.. 25..
Sherman was suggesting that she will never pull that fish out of the water..
and we should go..
the rest of us werent want as we waited for quite long already..
and we should see how big that fish was..
35…40…..45mins..
she succeed with her fishing with some help for others
the fish was at least 1 metre long..
that was really a “wow” factor..
then the next moment..
they let the fish go…
we were troubled in our mind…
finally.. on our way out..
we saw the pond’s name.. “Catch-and-release pond”
………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………
going evening time..
Darren drove Dear and i back home
Dear was 38.59 degrees…
so i let her sleep for an hour..
while waiting for the dinner to start..
the Eunos Zone 3 RC’s Chinese New Year dinner was really a big event for the RC themselves..
just look at the newspaper article..

my Uncle and my Brother were the Chairman and Vice Chairman for the event respectively..
were featured in the photo..
my Brother first from left standing..
my Uncle second from left sitting..

its all about the Guest-of-honour isnt it?
thats Mayor Zainul with all the RC members


back to the Chalet..
had our last bit of fun
before the last packing up and be ready for checking out the next day..

SubUrban Run… anyone?
later

A Dulled Lunar New Year

anyone caught the solar ellipse?
i was at the hospital..
the surrounding clouds were dark grey in colour..
enhanced the brightness of the sun..
but i believe all of us missed the moment due to the movement of the clouds
sadness……

check the line below the number 7777…
coolness man..
went out with Buddies to have Chinese New Year Dinner..
Darren drove us to Bugis to have steamboat..
then we continued to Raymond’s house to fulfill our sinful desire..
thanks to dear’s avocation (if you understand what i meant.. haha)

when to fang shen this morning..
two little golden fishes in the small container..
contributed by my brother and people from the RC from all over Aljunied GRC..
5 MPs came together grace the event
at 9:09am.. we all released those fishes out to the reservoir
happen to see Trish there..
they were invited to perform.. but i didnt manage to catch the performance..

‘A’ level results releasing date is getting closer..
but none of us can confirm which is the day of our doom or our success
simply too scary to think about it during the night
driving lessons are coming to an end..
hopefully to pass my Traffic Police Test once and for all..
and get my license before my enlistment day..
AeroMedical centre just sent me another appointment letter..
i am to go for a medica review..
really pray for myself to qualify for the pilot training man..
later

It is getting tough

went for my first CHA job yesterday..
River Valley Pri 4G is the class Jeslin and i was posted to..
it was terrible at the beginning..
but towards the end.. they were better and better..
experience and journey wise… i think it will be in my heart..
students walked before to and said, “thank you UNCLE SAM!”
and from the expression from their faces..
i think they really meant what they said..
but i dont know if i am deserving for that anot..
this is the first time.. and hopefully more to come


after break camp..
the few of us when to have lunch..
we did a silent hungry cheer in Northpoint Food court..
which was kinda surprise.. haha
went back home then met Dear for the last time before she change her look significantly..
Ong Bak 2 sucks..
bloods and nothing else..
slept halfway through it..
a waste of time and money i thought

went shopping for Chinese New Year stuff with Brother Mum and Hock Rong..
under the RC’s organised tour to the various wholesale centre in Pasir Panjang and Woodlands..
sleepy sleepy…
later

Novotel Stay

finally got a job for High Achievers..
went for the pre-camp briefing and then waited for Mum and Bro to come..
my phone went flat after getting Jesslyn’s number.. haha..
we got the second highest floor…
level 24..
premier room in Novotel..
damn cool man..



Somerset Hotel is just at the opposite

they got these mac here for 24-hour free usage..
its on the 7th floor

went around Chinatown area at night to shop for Father’s belt

went on to watch soccer at Satay Club at Clarke Quay at midnight..
Chelsea lost 0-3.. and i was devastated…

the next morning.. which is today..
we went some Long Feng Restaurant to have bunch
this is the Stone Pot Shark Fin with Crab Meat..
damn power..
it was served in a stone pot.. of cos..
and the pot is fiery hot that the shark fin can keep boiling for more than 10 mins..
power!
GCE ‘O’ Level result is out just now..
hope BDSians did well this time..
gonna visit Mrs Mah soon..
later

Leap over Cliff

went for my Pilot Vocational interview yesterday..
took long hours of travelling time and finally reached CMBP
and damn my phone went flat……….
thought of having lunch at Botak Jones but it was too crowded then
end up in CMPB’s canteen..
went on to Mum’s office to take a look..
all her colleagues were so warm in welcoming me..
times up..
reported to the SAF Recruitment Centre
anxiety and nervousness filled me in
heart rates go faster and heavier
there were 15 candidates on that day..
i was the 8th one..
a Major named Chris came on and brief us
and the session begins
waited for more than an hour..
seeing people being accepted and some rejected makes me more nervous
finally i went in
and came out in around 5 mins..
the fastest on that day i think..
the Chairman of the RSAF Flying Training School asked to me take care and see me in 2 years time..
then i went out… waiting for the result..
Major Chris then came out saying, “ah.. you.. you crazy ah?"….
and he goes on..
I AM ACCEPTED!
felt so damn relief..
went on to meet Dear in Cityhall and we shopped for her New Year clothing and shoes for hours..
before we went Darren’s house for Red Cliff 1
Chevy was first there but he doesnt seen interested in the movie..
Raymond came too..
Darren drived us to Tampines Mall for Red Cliff 2 at Midnight
the movie was damn good man!
later

Bottles up

went off to Yishun Bottle Tree Park this morning for the High Achievers Orientation-to-Job Training..
had some fun moments..
and lots of boring lectures..
well well..
got to know couple to new friends too..
including some former SRJCians too
i think the details should better not written here..
anyway..
one funny thing was that
when we were playing double wacko..
Eunice wanted us to name ourselves as our favourite dish..
i called out Buddha JumpING Over the Wall..
that was the shortest greatest fun of the day....................

went on to see my Father in Singapore General Hospital
seeing him still laughing and smiling on the bed ease my worries for him
hope he continue to be positive throughout the treatment..
YES HE WILL!
later