After a long while

its has been long.. long time..
hmm… i have been resisting myself from blogging..
its seems blogging is uncool.. lame shit..
and its spreads secrets..
haha.. of cos.. this is really true
especially in a military context..
oh well..
that brings to another point..
looks like people can know me before they see me just because i have a blog..
thats wonderful man..
what internet and blogging does.. hahaha
so i failed my agc..
back in aftc and slack..
but not exactly slack..
i some how make use of everything i can do there to my advantage
wahahaha.. im the man yo..
gym swim run.. library computer..
woohoo..
and my NSF life i not going to be prolonged.. this is the best part..
1 month in australia was alot..
and fruitful…
cos you will know who you really missed..
and these are the people i keep wanting to contact..
so if you are reading this.. and i contacted you since Jan..
i missed you! hahaha
talking about alot..
i ate alot and gain alot..
10kg!!! how is that?
i face looked like i just took 9Gs when i saw my weight in the gym the other day..
shocking for me.. sadly and true.. hai~
so.. gym run and swim is for me
the failure in agc triggered me to think of my future..
maybe i should concentrate on other things..
environment?
metrology?
science?
art? haha
or same.. engineering
i submitted my photos and money..
hopefully i can get my diving license fast enough..
i really hope to go somewhere.. to dive..
like a runaway in drama series..
once in a lifetime maybe?
haha.. diving wont be
more diving in shit waters for me..
but i hope to dive in some clear waters to moltivate me going on..
go learn diving peeps! its a whole new world underwater
it is too.. up in the sky.. when you are in control..
SEA AIR AND LAND…
save some money.. take some time.. i will off to some where for sky diving.. hahaha..
its my life!!!!
with people packed with studying.. final year projects.. and even NS..
i spent lots of time watching series these few days..
finished 4 seasons of Prison Break..
and im on Gossip Girls..
oh man.. how boring~

going back to NDU soon..
oh… how to say diver’s creed again?..
no worries i guess… the junoir will recite it all year round.. haha
and i like this.. HOOYAH!
later

For a Quiet while

Flying is fun
learning how to fly is tough.. especially when you are getting tax payers money.. haha
on the route of learning how to fly.. there many difficult moments for me..
i dont know.. just actually how i manage to screw those important moments in my life..
yea.. my dream is to be a pilot..
now that im out..
i felt im kind of lost..
because all my life is mainly to be a pilot.. pilot…… pilot………
SIA the next choice? maybe?
who knows..
now.. the more im into piloting..
the more i get impress with pilots..
the attributes they have really makes me jealous.. haha
i can fly.. just that i cant fly well enough..
with the stress of instructor … i will admin that i went haywire man..
just not good enough ba..
been here tried it..
no regrets..
i may or may not fly again..
but those lessons of these instructors will stay within me..
always..
i wish the rest surviving in 01/10 all the best.. C:


back to Singapore.. received my dearest mum brother and dear..
nowhere makes me felt like home except home.. really..
but as much i like home.. here also put me into the reality..
i have failed.. and have to go back to NDU..
got the news.. no wso chance for me.. only kelly..
oh well.. my feeling is like stirring around ..
dont know how to feel exactly…

life will be abit more lonely now..
dear have to study until graduation..
ndu guys in unit..
jc friends busy in uni.. and their respective units..
poly friends got their part to do for graduations too..
looking around.. its like.. im on my own..
haha..
i want to getaway get for awhile..
hmm
later

Looking back

January
the year begin with the anticipation of going into the National Service and the GCE ‘A’ Level results..
Compass test, Interview and then Medical.. i confirmed to the panel that i would like to serve my terms in the Naval Diving Unit before i sign up for RSAF Pilot.. that was somewhat a start of the pursuit of my Dream
i found myself a job in Camp High Achievers as an instructor.. did only once a 2D1N camp and thats it… it was tough until i enter NDU
Audrey was hospitalised and Dear cut a new short short hair..
February
5A got a SINful gathering in chalet..
went back SRJC for the CCA fair.. and see how the shooting team has changed..
maybe im bias.. but i think 07/08 is the best batch ever C:
had a really good time squaring up my study area before i got enlist..
time wasnt enough.. there were many thing i wish i could do.. but enlistment just kicks in the following month
March
had my first driving test… failed.. sad..
signed up for Suburban run and ran it..
then there was the enlistment..
it was different enlisting into a elite unit..
my Father wasnt around to see my enlistment.
and that morning 18march.. i hugged my Father for the last time
it was a major hit for me.. seriously.. having confine in camp and told that he is dying
i recall how Instructor wake us up and calling my name.. and no one knows who is that..
then the taxi driver.. speed all the way through.. its like telling me that he hope to let me see my father for the last time..
he went off.. not having the chance to see my naked head.. and its my mother’s birthday..
leave was given to me.. to settle the funeral and then things moved on..
April
come april times of emotions really got me..
diver training was tough enough.. and there was supports all round.. just not from within..
tears did come down my face in the middle of the night…
and finally when i squared up myself.. i know whatever i do now.. he will be watching over me..
May
we the 31st batch completed our BMT in sembawang and had a week break
there was this day.. my brother told me that i won 3 CCA distinction awards..
i cried straight away… i think its was straight forward for the reason why..
June
we were more like a naval diver already..
having introduced to the piece of shit treatments that we could give us..
wet and sandy was a norm..
boat pt was memorably painful..
but all was towards a goal.. to go through our Hell Week
July
its july…
we know its coming..
i remembered the leaders-to-be telling us..
our only motivation comes from the person standing beside you..
that was really the case…
and deep down again… whenever the boat was on my head.. i know my Father is watching ..
watching how tough i am..
we did the Hakka led by Lai…
and went around hooyahing people.. hugging our own batch boys to congratulate each other..
WE ARE HELLWEEKERS!
August
went back to SRJC for I will run with Jared and Weeta
did the college a little favour.. 17km.. right after the hellweek..
woohooo.. body aches is unavoidable hahah
dive phase started not long..
and i had my second lost during NS life..
my grandma passed away.. she was 87 of age..
the one who brough me up and cook delicious Haka delights for us 10+ years back..
the sad thing is that i needed to be the age of 20 to appreciate her hardwork then..
September
32nd batch came in..
31st batch became the senoirs..
and i recalled exactly… 090909 my birthday..
we got a real big hammering sessions..
then there was the separation..
separation of my best best buddies in NDU..
Tiong and Shern went off to OCS…
and Lai went SSDC.. i stayed in CDC..
i really felt lonely from time to time not having the mutual understanding guys
buddies who can feel me without asking me a single thing..
October
dive dive dive…
but we knew graduation is near..
November
all of us brought our love ones into the camp..
land and underwater display..
we showed them the hellweek video.. and some of the other things we do here..
all for a show.. but its was worth it..
111109 was the last official day for me Lai and Alex..
i packed my stuff and leave the camp..
wanting to pursue my Dream from then on..
i missed SOF- Supper on Friday
3 of us went on to SAFCC under the care to Sherlyn and Daryl..
others joined us later.. then later later..
December
we reported to the AFTC for the first time and people were already talking about us the “legendary batch” 01/10.. haha… it wasnt nice to do that..
but well.. we will see from now on..
went for our photoshoot at Marina Barrage
and there…


days are short.. time passes by fast..
Christmas passed and New Year coming..
3rd Jan.. we are off to Australia..
i’ll do it my best.. RSAF Pilot..
its mine.. its mine………
if not then too bad..
i see myself living in my dreams few years later.. make it happen!
Pilot!

Need a breather

its Christmas period..
and the New Year 2010 is within days of reach..
shortly after the new year will be my departure date..
most likely an A380..
and there will be stress and pain everything in Australia..
as always.. im very positive of myself.. that i will be able to pass this course..
but sometimes you just never know..
for the next moment i may just cried out loud somewhere no one knows..
thats real painful..
for all of the pilot trainees going for the same AGC will understand that i suppose
life after AGC wont be easy too.. so there are much to come.
but AGC first..
Aviation!?… i think for me… its still Hooyah! for now..
i misses the NDU culture..
Air Force culture is so ………
maybe its just me that is slutty that why hahaha..
but well.. who wont want a place where everyone can be a buddy with you..
and talking about being regimental..
no unit can compare to NDU man.. its just lovely la..
im going to pass this AGC la!!!
 
its end of year.. and its so much of a festive season..
my mood is just low low low low low and low
the thought of going overseas for this AGC makes me anxious.. excited… stressed.. and scare
so many things thats in my mind..
my Mother.. my dear.. my future..
but again… this is life ba.. you just have to suck it up..
time is so much of the essence now..
whenever im free. i just want to relax not do anything at all..
or just go lie down somewhere and look at the stars.
hai..
im low~

my Brother and Mother going Malaysia with Mr Zainul and the RC for 3 days 2 nights..
im all alone for the duration at home.. woohoo..
the kitchen will so fun!
the my day may end up in the toilet.. haha..
thought i could spend the boxing day with my shooting mates.. but sadly
its on 2 Jan already…
cant go for the shooting gathering..
cant go for jun liang’s birthday party..
shity..

hai my way to sleep

Culture Shock

finally got my first laptop lo!!! yea babe.. its hot
last few days in CMPB were slack until cannot..
and today.. we reported to AFRC for the first day..
a complete culture shock for us la…
there are almost a way to do things for everything man…
what the hell
so sad..
the question is why?… isnt me served 9 months of national service already?
yea. but in the dog unit… thats why hahahah
my head is pain pain pain man…
after the Zouk session with my AGC mates then the 4 days of night drinking in KL and Malacca…
i realised i have grown fat.. weak.. and super unhealthy
i hate this feeling.. and there is no much we can do about it.
cos we are encouaged not to run..
hope life in AFRC wont be so sucky for long..
and 3 Jan is coming real fast for this point of time..
just hope everything goes smooth
ssshhhhhhoooooowowwwoooooooooo

Some toppings on my bread?

it is weird..
i was staying in when i was in NDU…
but i seems busier now that im 8 to 5..
damn it man.. haha..
friends from the universities are like gone…
i guess people really do forget friends from time to time..
well.. suck it up man.. sad..
01/10 is expanding with the addition of people who out of a sudden can pass IPPT and some just happen to be able to join us..
well well.. as much as i want to pass it..
i also wish for a enjoyable experience for what will become of me in the future..


“Dream Tower, SHOOTLE, Gateway to be a Pilot in 10 Sec”
im going off to Malaysia from 11 to 14 Dec…
a trip with Raymond Darren Chevy and Dear..
a trip which we planned talking from all the way back in secondary 4
finally going lo..
really miss diving very much..
but the thing is diving in singapore is no fun at all..
im really looking forward to future’s diving trips..
whether going with my NDU mates or a group of complete strangers..
it still excites me.. 
i bought a laptop finally..
from SITEX… but until now.. i cant collect it..
it has not reach singapore man!!! oh man..
its a long wait la..
later

Moving on

life in CMPB has changed abit…
with the addition of people into the RSAF interview room..
also called by the AGC room..
there are the 3 of us from NDU.. 2 from Commandos.. an officer from Mindef.. an SCT from SiSpec.. 2 FEPs and 1 failed Pilot trainee and joined us as WSO pilot trainee..
time was spent on talking about life and experience in our respective units and talking about how we wish all of us can pass AGC and proceed to the become a Pilot in the end..
but once in awhile.. someone will remind us to do a reality check..
meaning to focus on our AGC first.. haha..
some of them were from SYFC.. and their sharing of flying knowledge was really useful la..
time seems to pass faster for the 2 days they are with us..
but well.. the week ended with just 2 days..
WOHOO!
today is a off..
tomorrow is a leave..
friday is public holiday.. and im going to BATAM yo!
never been there before.. hope it will be a nice trip with Dear C:

Our BBQ finally pulled off at Song Hon House since the Underwater Demolition trip back in September?
will miss you guys la..

celebrated my Uncle’s 55th birthday in Seafood Paradise in Defu Lane..
didnt know that there is such a nice place in an industrial estate man..
3 more weeks in CMPB..
oh man.. what a long wait..
cant wait to wear my flight suit in Air Force School la..
later