Walking

brace is finally off for a few days now
slowing getting back to shape for normal walking
every step i took
i know its a step closer to getting back on track
the goal is there i will i achieve it
i know its coming
its coming

i got the chance for an interview with keppel offshore marines last week
i turned it down
for some reason i believe i cant get into my formal wear and down to tues
and they person who contacted me suggest that i try on the next window
which is on Jan
oh well
we shall keep that in view

Programmer of SU20 is formed up
pretty much going into shape soon
hope for the best for my subgroup
and hopefully it will be as good as GG.sg
haha

been through that kind of selection process
and knowing that last year my seniors did about the same thing
the thought is just funny
imagining people commenting about you in a room
considering your capabilities and stuff
haha
its damn good to be senior

went on to ns.sg
realise my status is permanently down pes
its so tough
to decide if i should up pes again so i can join back my frogman family
but again
the road ahead is fully of uncertainties
sigh
one injury so much problems

End of 31st batch first chalet

so thats the three weeks of in camp training
with excuse diving and ippt
i pretty much got nothing to do
but to report there and sleep
do abit of recording and attendant work for my batch boys
time in camp is like a escape of the outside hectic life
i guess everyone had a good time together and break from the stressful time out of camp
the only pity is not all 31st batch of divers could get back together at once
or it will be a much haywire time

5 more high keys to go
i am still in the grey zone of whether i will still be in NDU after my surgery
as time get closer to the operation day
more fear is taking over me
to know the next day i may not be able to walk like how i used to work is starting to get daunting
with the diver heart of mine.. Nothing Stands in Our Way
hooyah to my knee my heart and mind



yesterday we went to the new Ow Meeting Place near tiong bahru
and as usual all those things we talked about is still the same old batch stories
while we happily reliving those times
a group of about 10 men was gathered at the table beside us
its just look like what we will be in 20 years later
batch boy coming back together to talk about the nonsense we had during our NS time

First high key

its such a enjoyment in camp
when im excuse diving and excuse ippt..
joke.. and i cleared one high key doing almost nothing
gym and swim only
awesome

Pre seniors camp

Finally finalise all the paper works and timeline of the camp
One more week to bingo while i get back to my uniform for the first time in something more than a year.
Tall and proud i will be. As i may not be able to have that formation badge on it it anything goes wrong with the medical review board.
Looking forward to reliving our pass moments. Try-outs and lastly 21st for my girl

Get my fitness back

reservist is up next week
back to military life for 3 weeks
but my fitness level is all down to the drain
just this morning i was early and running again
i cant see myself running non stop for 2km
damn shit
i could also felt if when i was at National Vertical Marathon helping out
the worst part is that my helping is not even helping much
lol
i will have much to catch up for the 3 weeks

OMP the BOMB

it has been what?
7 months? its freaking september already..
so it was long since we last met in such a large group..
when the facebook event pop-ed up from my phone..
i knew i cant miss this gathering event..
i felt it was so important that i requested my NTU shooting trial to be brought forward.
and FINALLY OMP…
Ow’s Meeting Place is somehow our home ground for 31st batch of divers to gather… i felt like home when i reach there seeing all of the others there welcoming us
the bond was really something to treasure between one and all of us 31st batch.. i believe all of them will feel the same way.. going through those tough times back in Unit.
after ORD, all of us went different ways..
NTU
NUS
SMU
SUTD
SIM
Scotland
England
Canada
work
and some sign on continue with their routine back in camp
stories were shared by each and everyone of us
one thing that is always discussed is our lovely hellweek..
like how our instructors used to tell us that our hellweek will be tough and all.. but you will never regret going through it.. cos ten fifteen years later.. when you see those people that went through the same week with you.. you will talk about the same thing over and over again…
we really need to thank all our instructors for those unforgetable moments back then especially WO Tan… his mind of torture is the best..
it is sad to know that the culture is changing and 1G NSF no longer producing from this unit..
oh well.. at least we made it through and thats why we can proudly call ourselves as 31st batch Naval Divers
Hooyah 31!

Break the Blue Moon

emotions overtook me
so much have happened..
one event is not enough.. my havainas slipper also abandon me..
then my knee have to give way too..
its the kind of feeling i never felt before..
or maybe im just weak la.. haha.. i was thinking if i get this kind of injury during a war.. i will just go all out and die as a honourable diver..
i have really awesome friends around me..
seriously appreciate them to be around me..
Aud Rina Krys Gwen Angus Dbag Squek Tiong Nat Shern Lai
a big thank you for your time la mates..
come to think of it.. my awesome friends doesnt stop there..
it has been long since i last meet up with my sec buds
ray darren kenny chevy all NS and ong is work and bf.. hai.. when are we going to meet again guys?… my margarita is waiting know..

i haven cried since the death of my father and the end of hell week..
yesterday i burst out.. i look at my knee and ask myself why all this come to me now?.. is this karma or something.. did i do anything wrong?
hai.. i really have much to think.. and much not to think haha..
woke up at that standard timing as usual..
knowing that i have to go for physio..
one tiny part of me actually felt scare.. scare of the unpredictable pain that i will feel during the treatment..
of cos i wish someone can accompany me for it.. but people is either busy or just not that convenient come over…
felicia suppose to come with me.. but sleep got her priority and i understand it.. she came after my treatment..
as i was lying there.. i look at my knee again and thought of what angus said about soccer players’ injuries.. YEA.. just wack only!
the sinseh is really experience siao already..
i guess he have do too many of similar cases.. until he also sian..
its pain.. but not that much.. bearable and short.. next moment i know im sitting outing with for fel to come already..
went to OCBC for some banking stuff today..
it made me realise that i should start planning for the next 4 years of uni life.. finance hall and commitments..
hectic life will eat me up and most likely disappear from non-NTU events.. i really hope i can still go for netball in NUS C:
gonna take a break from work.. and social activities for awhile..
now that my knee is in this condition
my bed is like a hospital bed already.. just that its more cosy.. no nurse no drips.. and no visitors just me and alot of cushions..
i miss my NDU bunk setup man.. haha

Office life

Has just started working in IRAS this week..
it has been a long training period..
long lessons for these few days..
the understanding of income taxes is really important for the job.
had a few experience at the frontline already..
and it is as what Krystal said.. tiring
filing peak is going to come soon
I really hope I can handle well and cut all emotions when facing tough ones
hahahha..
oh well.. however the toughness will be..
there will be a friday chill out time outside novena when we will start release all of it in us.
hahaha
working life is really different..
its part of growing up to be a complete adult..
routine is pretty much the same. and night life really got to cut down very much
standing for half a day today made me felt the tiredness already..
but well.. tiring job had a good impact on my life..
I got into sleep faster and easier these few days..
but I hope these few days wont have some flipping nights

occassional meet ups with NDU guys are really awesome..
we will always stays top of the world when we were together..
nothing beats these happy haywire times.
suddenly all worries and at the back of our minds and we just enjoy the company to the max..
cant wait to use the bangkok voucher with the guys.. ahh..
so excited for so many things..
hahahhahaha
im starting to understand more details in life.
smile.. and just keep smiling..
later

Gather together

having orded from such a unit..
it really take some time for one to get used too..
no matter how good things is..
we are separated.. and we all missed the times we had together..
all those gathering proves it all out…
fun and laughter is endless once these group of us gathered at a place..
the purpose is not much of a priority I guess..
edward’s surprise.. felix bday.. cny visit..
all are the days we want to put extra effort to bring everyone back together again..
just hope most of us are fated to be back in camp for the same ict.. hahaha
biathlon is getting close..
its this weekend
I finally took the scary path to go for a run..
nice run.. but the ankle wasn’t that good.
but 10km shouldnt  problem..
but with the 1.5k swim..
just wait to surprise myself
Felix is going off to australia to study..
alicia leaving soon too..
quan feng is going canada for good..
terry and jonny left already..
jared is going to teach cambodian for 2months..
changi airport is so friendly to singaporean huh?
got a job with krystal’s help.
IRAS at novena ..
hope we will get a good working experience from there working customer services..
CNY..
for once in my life my friends actually come to my place to bainian..
haha.. oh well.. I hope it’s the first of many to come..
since my place don’t really have entertainment devices and stuff..
and oh.. I was so pleased when I got a msg from mrs mah..
haha.. I think Its time to go back to visit these few days ah.. mm..

fate is playing me……………………
I just want it simple…
but but but.. there is always a but

Shoot out!

I entered the Finals at 5th place..
tie with 4th place but losing a inner 10
preparation and sighting sucks..
cos there wasn’t really time to do so..
8 mins…. unlimited sighting shots..
how many shots can one fire seriously?
without much accuracy..
the finals started..
my first shot.. 7.7 what the hell..
so I thought that’s the end.. no more 4th already..
but my shot got better and better..
cos there wasn’t anything to lose anymore.
hahah
10th shot finished..
I turn my head back to look at the scores after the commentator read my score..
it’s the same as the 4th place… AGAIN!
so I was like shit! its shoot out for me..
I thought I will get ever more stress and shaking legs and hands..
but well… some how I found the peace..
It was a 10.9 shot.. just that my rifle is not zeroed properly..
I got a 10.1.. and he got a 5.0 totally off..
pretty much it was a victory for me..
4th..
in a competition full of hot shot shooters..
I think im the only one without a proper shooting shoe..
one of 2 shooters without a tripod..
first timer in finals..
I believe I serious won champion despite of the title 3rd runner up..
wheeeeeeeee

Safsa Interformation shoot

that was some shooting experience..
leg trembling the whole way through..
breathing really sucks..
cool air around but i m sweating..
heart beats like crazy
and towards the 30 shot mark..
my left middle finger got cramped…
wooohooooo.. 564 again
so those are the scores of mine and my air rifle team mates..
its good that we at least got a team silver..
individual.. well.. hope miracle happens for me to get 3rd? hahaha.. first two are just unreachable
Finals!

2, 6 and go!

there was it.. we did it sweet and nice..
impressive in fact wahaha..
im so proud of that myself..
we into this countdown moment of our NS term..
it’s a really fruitful journey for me..
I will always think back my time in the Air Force Recruitment Centre interview room..
I glad that I told them that I wish to try on NDU’s Hellweek
”how tough can that be anyway” was what I thought..
and from 18 march to 11 nov 2009.. I experienced what 1G Divers training was like..
the toughest of all in this new generation..
and after all those sick shit tortures by the MAN…
I realised that hammering is an art..
not all can do just like what he did to us..
more cannot be imagined what he used to do to our seniors
I went on to RSAF after getting the honourable badge
failed.. but it was so much fun pulling Gs and all..
and I landed C: haha
got a chance to go for a subsidied dive trip with lai..
that was long since I last dived..
and then I realised.. being in water have been second nature to me..
back to unit..
did the nation and SAF a favour..
I thought since I cant fly pass padang.. I can at least march as the Navy’s best
went taiwan and became the legendary CO attend C.. did almost nothing else beside being IV by the MO
tried on Brunei… and felt so lucky im a diver.. not some jungle man..
and then the very last evolution that we aced it together as 31 UDT
promotion from cpl to cfc meant something to me.. maybe its just me..
but well I appreciate every good things that happens to me..
still a positive person I guess..
I look through all my military stuff…
uniforms.. and attires
from navy.. divers to air force pilot trainee stuff..
wow its a lot of shit there haha..
more to come are those ORD gifts and photos
equate us as frogs with trident, bomb and wings..
frogmen for the sea..
such a small community by ourselves
how I wish those old times can be passed on…
listening to hooyah greetings daily
seeing some trainees kena hammered on the field or parade square..
such a culture will be nice…
I enjoyed my time on boats..
in NDU or out at the sea..
obm running and my set on mianbao..
riding for a purpose
those strong wind can refresh me anytime..
if only I can buy one zodiac boat and a obm myself.. go some riding once in a while.. haha..
will only miss those squeaky time on the boat with my buddies

there will be a bbq with our dvs instructors..
haha.. I think it will be fun
and then the ORD event..
and the element of bring a date…
wow.. tough one.. since im single already..
need to start finding one soon!

just if you happen to pass by here my lazy ass batch boys..
read one more time before ord la.. hope it brings some memories to your head
it’s the Diver Creed
I will swim faster, run further and fight harder from the sea, air and land.
I will fight with all my might and bravely overcome the enemies in defence of my land.
I will carry out my duty with HONOUR and INTEGRITY.
I will care for my team mates and I will never leave a fallen comrade behind.
Loyalty, Courage, Integrity and TEAM SPIRIT distinguish me.
I am a Naval Diver, Frogman from the Sea.
Hooya!
NOTHING STAND IN OUR WAY!

later C:

Getting back the standards

So there i was training back in the range. Somehow the feelings and everything that matter in my shooting returns to me.

On Tuesday i finally broke my personal best which stayed at 564. I got 565. Thr result made the day and all the previous training worth it. So there again not wishing to score a fantastic score today. I got 574 for my first 60 which in it i had the first 100/100 series. Then 567 for the second 60. It was amazing. 2 new personal best in a week during training.
But well interformation is still far and dec dont have much training. So still got lots of training to do on my own to ensure i score good during the competition.

Hooyah to my new pb C:

It left a scar on my left index finger

the plane was C130
13th to 22nd sept
we set off to what some thought useless
some thought easy day
and pointless
touch down.. bus… boat taxi.. then bus again..
finally we see some familiar uniform over in Brunei
its a SAF camp..
training starts after we settled our stuff in the long big bunk..
3 straight days of absorbing..
its really a challenge to be able to rise to the occasion
so we went for the navigation..
and then the survival
i’ll make it my way.
.mud
.stress
.despair
.lonely
.helpless
.tiring
.hungry
.dizzy
.painful
.disgusting
.clueless
.uncertainty
.troublesome
.bloody
.sinful
.dirty
.sick
.cold
.wet
.dry
.sweat
.fear
.tension
the list goes on..
during the 4d3n survival phase..
i have learn a couple of things..
survival is no joke or game..
it make you feel like nothing.. and hopeless.. no moltivation to do a single thing
out in the jungle alone.. its a way to force you to think of the one you really loved..
for me.. i think i really clear of my love already..
craving utensils on the frame.. makes me wonder of things i never thought of..
its really a good one time only experience..
after the 4d3n.. i really give my respect to those with JCC badge..
i cant really tell a story here..
but all i have remembered.. it all will flash back to me whenever i see the scar on my left index finger..
the scar that let my blood flow so fast that made a little fountain as i push a handyplaster on it..
we may have 100% pass..
but well.. i know i am still off the standard that near a pass from them..
lucky… im one of the men in blue.. not green..
but these knowledge and experience will definitely go with me for life..
I survived to tell a story C:


we happen to be under an ex-diver
also under the treatment of our trainee time PC..
haha.. had really a good time listening to those inhumane times of his
well.. at least we know we are not that tough anymore..
so complain no more la..
and oh.. we no need a ladder to climb the bed know!.. haha
that was some way to climb a bed
and at a distance from the home of the divers.. we hooyahed again for our hh-certified ex diver jungle master


beside skills and experience..
i realise i can start to see people’s good side easier than before..
i dont know how did i managed to do it.. but.. some how i realise that..
just somehow.. theres a good or nice side of each individual..
just only.. one man .. i have yet to see the bright side of him..
he is my batch f-er

after those 4d3n..
our PC Chew.. brought us to the canteen and treat us a drink..
he made a toast..
cant remember those words ..
but well.. i know it certainly force a tear or 2 out from me..
and i thought of the time back in the Airforce Career Centre interview..
”i will like to experience hellweek” C:
i see how the hell we manage to be in the military and harwire so much..
hahahahahhahhahaaha
i will regret so much if i didnt have a blue shirt on during my JOT..
and will jealous so much when i see the bond within them..
just a classic moment.
infront of the A-frame .. those few buggers..
broke the baka woods..
next moment there was a reaction…
men no in blue.. was like shit!..
but men in blue.. break out into laughter
how did we do it?..
maybe it is the yellow colour on the blue shirt ba

Hooyah to Brunei and JOT C:

Appreciating Appreciations

last Sunday.. i sms Mrs Mah if she was free on Monday for us to catch up with her..
as i tot she wont reply.. the next morning finally there was a response..
oh well.. somehow she dont have my number on her phone.. but she got my number la..
the anticipation on the way back Bedok South to finally see my former teachers was quite a experience..
dont know~ hmm i will describe it as a the anticipation kid wanting to see his long lost mother..
hahaha..
so there were a few teachers who Sherman and I met and talked..
after some sharings.. well.. i think i am really appreciated back in BDS.. with almost all my former teachers can remember my name..
ha.. maybe because i am one of those really few that visit the school after years..
Mrs Mah kept telling other teachers that we were her 06 batch..
oh man.. suddenly i felt we were so old already .. 21st birthday this year?.. old?.. quite la.. haha
Spoke with Mrs Mah and as always its so fulfilling telling her about my progresses and my life..
it has been long since i last came.. before i enlisted.. i came with my ‘A’ level results..
though it not flying colours.. but for her.. or any one taught me before.. i think its good enough ba..
so its almost 1 and a half year back already..
oh time flies man..
and talking of my NS life.. woo.. it will really take some of their time.. so really.. i just merely say the word hellweek for summary la.. hahaha
had a chance to speak with our DM too.. haha.. Ms Abraham a very loud name for any BDSian really haha..
its sad to realise how the lifestyle and culture that people around us or the young secondary school student had changed…
hai sad…
and oh.. she commented that i am a very humble person! hahaha
and how people should be proud and not to be Proud, arrogant in another words la..
come to this point..
i ask alot of people..
why this why that..
and i realise a very real thing about us..
how Practical should things be..
thats the idea..
being practical.. is it wrong? or it is just correct?
being practical means you need to complain about having NS?
means you cannot love someone who has no car?
means you cannot risk you life for Singapore if the government dont pay you well?
because of the word practical.. i think most of us forgot about loyalty, true love, religion, etc.
somehow when someone tell me whatever is more practical.. i got turned off easily..
its like.. being selfish rationally … why not you guys just say.. “hey~ i am selfish what!”
hmm Mrs Mah actually tell her students to come and read my blog..
hahahahahhaa
so if you are one of them .. well.. i dont know if you can learn anything from my writings but you can really understand my life.. if you are going to go through a similar path C:

NDP Preview is tomorrow..
its a national event..
im in the Navy GOH as most know..
i may not be in the first row with the President walking pass me..
but i will definitely stand tall with a Naval Diver’s pride which sadly most of us dont have..
i think i realise how important your love ones affect you or your performance on this kind of events
on NE1.. My Mother and Aunt came.. i tot its the first parade with audience that why i was so fired up..
but i guess the true reason is because they were there watching..
they may not see me.. but being there is enough already..
there was my Brother appeared out of no where just before we marched in for the parade on NE2.. i think that affect most of the parade too..
so.. how i wish these people can come and see me..
my GF!!! the real mogu
my sec sch teachers and school mates buddies.. Mrs Mah Ms Shek Mr Yao… ray darren chevy sherman kenny
closer jc school mates too junliang audrey felicia rina zhuo ying
but the utmost person.. My Father la.. he is not around anymore.. .. well he may be looking down on Padang every Saturday yea?.. haha i know that..
my Aunt C:

oh.. i Shot for the Inter-RSN shooting competition again..
this time round.. only got 3rd for individual air rifle event..
but overall.. NDU still first la!
know whats the funny thing?..
the competition only have Air Rifle and Pistol…
but look at the trophy im holding..

lol.. if you cant see.. its a Shotgun shooter

haven been going MMI Physio for quite some time le..
i guess my right is starting to recover.. and soon.. focus on diving liao..
no more appointment..Zzz
went FASS with Fel and Krystal the introductory talk.. the LT got like 5 guys?
guy’s heaven man..
the place for Weeta la.. hahahahhaa
my 10 Levels is still the most powerpack blast to him la.. supported by all the audience that day C:
back to camp again..
Singing Hooya~hey Parades are Easy Day!

Little happy moments VS Tough assdragging shits

roar roar rooaaaarrrrr
its too quite here..
gonna add some live in it..
i have decided.. no SF for me..
NTU after NDU lo! wahahahahahahahahhahhaha

the whole of last month..
i experience alot of things that i cannot say in blog..
maybe becos it have too big a consequence that i cannot manage..
well well.. but no matter how sucks my life can be..
there is always the sweet part..
there was a job well done in SAF parade.. when Diver = Navy
there was our batch’s officers commissioning and return to be our leaders
there was shern’s birthday and finally.. the 5 of us got to meet up together again..
there were my secondary school buddies all botak hahaha
there was my mother and aunt coming to see me march on NDP 2010 GOH Navy
there was a wonderful night sky on the particular day.. i was a Draco constellation with Ursa major.. and i tot of the moments in fort canning with the Orion constellation
it was a very tough month for me..
but some of these few good times were what it takes to relight the fire in me..
slacking in day in day out … life have been much draggy..
too much to drag in fact.. haha..


events to come…
my cousin’s wedding is coming later..
my brother’s NUS graduation finally…
more and more parades to come… more fire to burn..
more and more dry runs..
more and more dives.. more water to pour
JOT to complete
and more important on individual level…
RSN Shooting competition..
i really hope my form will come and claim i really meant to get
hopeful to be in the Navy team again.. and the SAFSA inter formation shoot
I WANT THE SAFSA ASSOCIATE MEMBERSHIP!!!
some how Trap shooting sounds cooler then air rifle shooting.. hahha.. but thats not the point..
the feeling of hitting a flying clay VS a 10.9 on the target.. well.. i think i like the first more
may the assdragger go have more rest! Hooyah

The sense of Honour

ok..
so i went Taiwan and up post to CO sickbay..
missed 3 liberty and chance to take photos..
buy some stuff and home sweet home..
reached Singapore..
dear said she used her Polariod so much that all the 60 papers are used up..
hmm~ haha
oh.. another thing.. Polariod is a brand… not a thing..
instant cameras are what Polariod sell..
this misunderstanding made me going to Fujifilm and ask for Polariod quite stupidly..
oh well.. Polariod’s branding is too good i think
parade with the rest of the marching contingents makes us -  the GOH – feel a sense of pride and honour..
cannot imagine how wonder when we go full dress in Padang..
went cable ski with my mates..
fantastic experience once im able to get it out there and turn some rounds..
but well.. superman-ed coupled of times on the sharp turns
and bang into the water like never before..
shoik la..
finally… there is a 2S17 class outing…
hmm.. it turn out not that bad as i tot..
guys into NS and girls into unis…
nice la…
going to have my SR134 out next week..
hope there wont be some sudden shit to interrupt C:
parade parade parade is coming our way…
SAF day and NDP is gonna wet the no4 like free…
but for me.. its all for the honour..
i feel it.. its coming.. august 9 is coming..
and we will stand so proud until we only see the clouds..
Hooyah to my life C:
later

Before taking off

unknowingly.. one month passed..
and i realise i didnt update my blog..
so here it goes..
finally today..
going to fly off to taiwan with my bros..
dont actually have an picture of what will be there…
so just hope for the best..
have been hammering myself once everyweek..
so i can fit in just well with the others when things go haywire..
and my ippt results have been improving..
sadly got to break for taiwan..
and then restart over again…
i wont be around for my dear’s 21st birthday..
that really sad..
and since i cannot be there.. i hope to that my presence can be felt by her on the day
to do that.. i search high and low around singapore..
i cannot find the thing that i want to get for her..
out of desperation..
i went on to ebay..
thats when online shopping become my best friend..
click click click.. there goes..
my order..
but there was an uncertainty of when they will deliver the product after all the clickings
so after 2 days.. just as i was tracking the mail..
my bro went to open the door.. and there.. my present for her is there..
thats impressive..
really.. hahahahaha
looking at the clock at that point of time..
i needed some help..
and blar blar blar.. i got it done..
and guess what.. she wont even notice that i place something infront of her eyes..
hahahahaa… thats my dear la…
happy 21st birthday dear… its for you

Some getting away

finally.. im going back where i belong..
the home of the divers haha
these few months has been somewhat a holiday to my NSF life..
fruitful indeed..
went tioman with my regular leave left..
made some new friends with lai..
remembering how NDU’s CWO used to tell us.. alot of divers convert their military license to leisure cert but never dive since their time in ndu..
hoho.. i haven ORD.. but did some leisure dives liao…
thats nice..
haven even get my cert.. i got to dive liao.. wahhaha..
Sunnycove is the place la..
small and flexible
i didnt mean the company.. but how their trip is planned..

a levels result is out…
hoping my junior's result is fine..
just wished them..
didnt asked how they do though
its also time to consider if i want to change course..
i think.. i’ll stick with Mechanical la..
maybe next time can work for 3M.. haha
its march liao..
so fast ah…
its 1 year solider lo!!
10 months to go guys..
taiwan.. some parade.. taiwan and we can start to countdown
cant wait to join my 31 for some training la..
staying at home and airforce make me weak and fat.. haha..
my IPPT is going to suffer
hope they dont take away my allowance ah.. haha
while i still got time…
its MOVIE TIME
hooyah to the last days of my regular term! C:

Need a breather

its Christmas period..
and the New Year 2010 is within days of reach..
shortly after the new year will be my departure date..
most likely an A380..
and there will be stress and pain everything in Australia..
as always.. im very positive of myself.. that i will be able to pass this course..
but sometimes you just never know..
for the next moment i may just cried out loud somewhere no one knows..
thats real painful..
for all of the pilot trainees going for the same AGC will understand that i suppose
life after AGC wont be easy too.. so there are much to come.
but AGC first..
Aviation!?… i think for me… its still Hooyah! for now..
i misses the NDU culture..
Air Force culture is so ………
maybe its just me that is slutty that why hahaha..
but well.. who wont want a place where everyone can be a buddy with you..
and talking about being regimental..
no unit can compare to NDU man.. its just lovely la..
im going to pass this AGC la!!!
 
its end of year.. and its so much of a festive season..
my mood is just low low low low low and low
the thought of going overseas for this AGC makes me anxious.. excited… stressed.. and scare
so many things thats in my mind..
my Mother.. my dear.. my future..
but again… this is life ba.. you just have to suck it up..
time is so much of the essence now..
whenever im free. i just want to relax not do anything at all..
or just go lie down somewhere and look at the stars.
hai..
im low~

my Brother and Mother going Malaysia with Mr Zainul and the RC for 3 days 2 nights..
im all alone for the duration at home.. woohoo..
the kitchen will so fun!
the my day may end up in the toilet.. haha..
thought i could spend the boxing day with my shooting mates.. but sadly
its on 2 Jan already…
cant go for the shooting gathering..
cant go for jun liang’s birthday party..
shity..

hai my way to sleep