Living in JC's lie

why people dont understand the reason behind studying
exams dates are set since the day before their first lecture begins
time time time.. they always complain they no time and all..
but it become clear where their time went to when you look at their social media accounts
tons of comments and status suggesting people to pity them cos their life is so sad
no time to study
so stressed up yet no energy to work on by
why why why like that?

one thing is damn true..
we are all living in the JC's teachers' lie
ALL WILL BE EASIER IN UNIVERSITY
oh well.. not totally true.. but its a whole lot of it
being a undergrad
you are an individual going to graduate with a degree
once you hold a degree.. no matter how your results reflected
people you know you have a skill
especially for technique degrees like engineering
you possess the skills and knowledge
and we all know how exams are conducted
no cheats little formulas given and students are all stressed up and may forget one or two things
and hence people come out with C grades and stuff
but at the end of the day you still possess the skills
employers will still hired you
and we will still get a job
so come on..
study hard and leave the results as it is
we will get somewhere eventually

hooyah!

面壁思过

When you have time.
When you have post its.
When you need to study.

Deng~ and Junked

where does all these junk mails come from?
recently i started to receive a lot of them in the email that i want to exile...
but some how people just dont want to update my email address hence deleting it will be a chore

Mid point

Aww went home after 3 war papers. Fought hard is ok. Leave some ingredient that i brought back from hall. And mum implantes delicious into it!

Handle???

Was at nie library today when i saw this. Haha.

Theorems

Exams finally started

started badly

maths was quite a hard one

astronomy coming soon..

still got an hour to waste on games and stuff

exam period is just absolute boredom

Lag Jack

went to massage at suntec yesterday
i guess my massage required standards is really up there
and i wonder why she need to wear a glove for that seriously
without glove is so much more comfortable
and really got issue with that part when she assume that im asleep during the session
i never sleep during a massage
i cant sleep that easily although i always wish i could
oh well

3 days without books and notes now
guilt is one thing
confidence is another
i hope i can sustain until the last day to not touch my notes
living the truth in me

somehow watching movies and tv sitcoms can help revisions too
shows like angels and demons davinci code big bang theory
are really revising concepts and history of astronomy for me haha
deadly week ahead.. going be killed by boredom soon
later

Exam period crisis

staying at home the whole day
watching movies
how i met your mother and big bang theory
oh man.. life is so bored when your peers are all studying
even more so when your doctor confirm that your acl torn and stuff
the need to minus the sports activities is shit
need to wait until august is also quite shitty
oh man.. life have his sucky times

i tot i would find someone confident enough to say they are done studying with exams and no study any more in NTU
im sure there are these few people..
just hope that one day i will get to know some of these people
so when exam time comes
we could hang out

good things is that my secondary school mates are yet to go college
hahaha they are all serving NS now.. if possible they will be my source of hope in weekends

later

Surgery

finally set the date on 1st august
there will be a new life waiting for me after sports camp and before the start of school term for year 2
ACL reconstruction and alot of physio to do

Fonts~

whats with the difference in font man.. testing~

studying in NUS Utown now.
say what.. really nice environment here
locals here really dress nicer than back in NTU
foreigners is still the same
study areas are as packed as well
oh well

later

Eutectic?

7am

7.30am

8am

9am. i dont seem like im going to be waking up

but i was awake

back to those days of terrible sleeps

need to drag myself out of the bed

its a chore

cant help it

today i lose it.. no more studying for me

i cant do it anymore

but what else it there to do?

i felt confident about the exams

but what if it dont go my way

yet again.. it somehow usually go my way

haha

im worried

worried about what can become of my knee

tomorrow i will head to NUH and tell them i want the surgery

31st july or 1st august

1st angust? haha.. what a day uh?

i feel that i need to do it as early as possible

dont want to drag

sometimes i asked myself why did i sign up as a programmer?

but what if i didnt? haha

i will be more of an inferior person

exchange exchange exchange

is such a thing undergrads wants to chase for

the global experience

the moment you have to say bye to your family and friends and out for months in a foreign land

mixed feeling indeed

for girls.. i think thats when they will truly learn about independence

there is still this part of me back in camp

back in ndu and air force

i imagine myself being a specialise and commanding all these young chaps who just got enlisted

and telling them about my story as a 31st batch trooper

i imagine myself learning how to fly a new aircraft side by side with lai

and leaving for dive trips with my best synced dive buddy

but im here in ntu

studying and wasting money

i begin to see why people like bill gates and steve jobs dropped out of college

degree dont benefit these people at all

but who am i to say i match up to them?

thats the dream we all should have..

thing of the possibilities out there even without a degree and an university life

i miss Bedok South

ICARE

i miss SRJC

to learn to serve

i miss NDU

nothing stands in our way

later

Revived

Took out my shoe. Put on my navy singlet and i ran. I ran the park connector that led me to east coast park. There. I sat on the huge rock for god knows how long it was. The sensation was good. I was revived there. That very moment. White washes bubbling up on the rock. Kids playing behind me. Rain drops on my face. All those dull in my was cleared away. I wasnt wrong that i missed the sea. Now i know. I cant live without it. Without having to enjoy sea breeze once in awhile. It that kind of relief that i felt. Blow all the troubles away.

Good run. Good weather. Later

Freshman Year

today is the end of study week for semester 2 of my year one

its has been quite a journey..

begun with sports camp

then hall camp

then sem one and sem two

life in NTU had good and bad times

new friends from all sorts of backgrounds...

some times i wonder if a degree will really bring me somewhere

somewhere that i will settle my life with

and work there until my last breath

things that we need to do to get our grades

what if one day there are no need for such a grading system?

the world should gone haywire

no one will ever study hard for exams and all

thats the sad truth

one thing i learnt from NDU is all humans are slut..
take ippt for example.. 9.14 is gold.. most people will just aim for that and not a lesser time

put this into perspective

GPA 5 seems unreachable for most of us

but what does GPA 5 really means

some times i asked myself why people including myself are chasing for this..

im tired of finding the answer..
yes the result will look good for resume indeed..
but what else does it truly matter?

work hard and enjoy life should be the emphasis

ill try to live by it...
too much influence from noises around

be surprised how these noises changes people

not blogging is not good for me

i kept thoughts in my mind and cant unleash them

cant organise them properly

still recall those days i blog almost everyday

my mind is always clear and straight and things and decision

but somehow with the advances of technology..

iphone and ipad and all..

i became much too lazy to even touch the app in my phone

sense a need to get back my thoughts in alignment

need to

end of year 1 with 5 papers..

it will end at 2nd May

after that we all will have nothing to do

have to start planning stuff to do after

if not we all will feel the void in us..

no need to touch books and notes anymore

that kind of feeling

feeling of freedom and lost at the same time

suck

ironic it is

luckily i have trips reservist and camps to look forward to

and finally the day i should start getting my formal sporting life back

ACL reconstruction

let me fly through those fields and climb those walls

conquering all kind of obstacles again

i need it

ACL save me from my misery!

Hooyah!