Eutectic?

7am

7.30am

8am

9am. i dont seem like im going to be waking up

but i was awake

back to those days of terrible sleeps

need to drag myself out of the bed

its a chore

cant help it

today i lose it.. no more studying for me

i cant do it anymore

but what else it there to do?

i felt confident about the exams

but what if it dont go my way

yet again.. it somehow usually go my way

haha

im worried

worried about what can become of my knee

tomorrow i will head to NUH and tell them i want the surgery

31st july or 1st august

1st angust? haha.. what a day uh?

i feel that i need to do it as early as possible

dont want to drag

sometimes i asked myself why did i sign up as a programmer?

but what if i didnt? haha

i will be more of an inferior person

exchange exchange exchange

is such a thing undergrads wants to chase for

the global experience

the moment you have to say bye to your family and friends and out for months in a foreign land

mixed feeling indeed

for girls.. i think thats when they will truly learn about independence

there is still this part of me back in camp

back in ndu and air force

i imagine myself being a specialise and commanding all these young chaps who just got enlisted

and telling them about my story as a 31st batch trooper

i imagine myself learning how to fly a new aircraft side by side with lai

and leaving for dive trips with my best synced dive buddy

but im here in ntu

studying and wasting money

i begin to see why people like bill gates and steve jobs dropped out of college

degree dont benefit these people at all

but who am i to say i match up to them?

thats the dream we all should have..

thing of the possibilities out there even without a degree and an university life

i miss Bedok South

ICARE

i miss SRJC

to learn to serve

i miss NDU

nothing stands in our way

later