Motivation

the reason to...

hmm..
the talk was boring...
but the content was good...
but again... i heard it before le...
thats why...

i heard all those thing for a director from MoE...
a lady...
that spoke to all leaders and top students during sec 4 fun fiesta-cum-speech day...
which was two years ago...
she recite a story that inturn to teach us the PLACEBO effect that im always talking about...

im positive...
a very positive person...
you know if you know me..
im who i am because someone once told me about placebo effect...
im very greatful...
but sad that i had already forgotten her name...



this bought me back to my sec 2 teacher...
science teacher...
"i want you to top this subject. i know you will. you will!"
his name is mr Lo...
i did it because of the trust he had on me..
im always thankful to him for that...

so sad that now theres also a Lo...
but ... (no comment..)

later

2 Months

is just the matter of how you see it ...
2 months to promo...
7 weeks to promo...
50+ days to promo...
1200 hours to promo...
72000 mins to promo...

numbers do make us confuse...
make us panic...
well... i choose to use the numbers to my advantage.
placbo yet again...

no use "omg"ing ...
"omg is just... away from promos! AH!!!!"
make full use of every moment of the time left should be the essential move to make...


sheena was appointed the leader of economics alive...
joanne is her asst...
well...
no one wants to be...
and then finally theres two of them..
so we should give them our respect on their decisions...
not just "wa lao ... why i that one... i didnt choose that leh!"
yes i know about the feeling when people say that...
confirm pissed off one...
when i saw the list... i went "wa lao" too...
after that loud words...
i was so confused on why i said that...
the whole chinese lesson i shut up...
..... only trying to say sorry to sheena...
but...i just cant say out of my mouth... useless...


sent a sms to susan at friday night...
funny her... said was shocked to receive my greetings...
well.. nothing to comment...
today is bryan's birthday....
my class's bryan...
but dont even have his no.. lol...
tomorrow hope we will celebrate it happily..
and like someone commented... "none of my business"


read lydia's blog...
realise something...
she always reflect back her life..
her experience of almost every incidents...
hmm.. abit like me... but my way of reflection is only to my fan.. haha..
is quite amazing to know a person during the first 3months and regrad her as one of my best friends....
even jun liang took me sometime to know and regrad as one as well...
looking back..
first 3 months was that good...
that memorable.........
well life goes on...

i was thinking...
what if during the first 3 months... i was not selected into shooting club...
what cca will i be in now?...

studying now...
but you know what...
locker is such a good place for me to put everything in...
haha... all my notes inside...
how to do hw?!
lol!!!!!!!!!!

joalin's mindmap is so useful...
well done joa!!!
use that to study for exam!

farewell~

On the Corner of Main Street

....
who can read my mind...
pls ...
read it...

im tired...
very very...

confusing.... of what... i also dont know...

no time...
sai...

4th year annivesry coming...
and have nothing for dear dear...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
changes changes and changes...
both of us adapted to it...
from my point of view....
i can say that we are a perfect couple....
the term used only in theory...
but its true...

sound like gp...
haha..
but whats more can i say...
just a simple
..............i love you!

Experiencing the Extraordinary

went to the work out place this morning..
those aunite uncle like very hostile..
hmm.. perhaps one day i can communicate with them..

PE
waited dame long for teacher...
teacher then came...
5 rounds...
basketball...
played with timothy the vp of the council...
haha... he played not bad you know...
cool...

break... then chemistry tutorial...
maths lecture...
okok~...

lunch ...
XF JL and LQ went to take our power nap after our meal...
song man...

chinese was rather relaxing...
we listen to story of mrs phay...
and i did see lucia and aurora watching norbit...
lol...
for me ... mrs phay story was more interesting...
haha

PW meeting...
PW lecture...
no hard feelings but i did feel a sudden love for the student council
as they need the LT... haha
many people felt the same i thought
hahahaha

shooting...
a short one...
but a very good one..
my 10 white was with much precise
haha
got the bloody good feeling while shooting...
but ended fast as i need to go for my interclass netball...

talking about it..
we won...
we won and become the champion!!!!!
wahahahaha...
this few days of netball...
from a complete idoit towards netball to now...
we are all netballers le...
feels great man..
haha
during the matches today...
i change stress into strength... shouting and shouting...
i dont know if i rise the morale of my team ... but i think the opponent was affected....
when the stress level is that bloody high...
and changed into strength...
even the jumping was high... higher than expected i guess....
can remember the finals...
shirla and the guy,...
when shirla takes the ball.... and aim...
the feeling was like...
"hey i going to shoot now... jump and block it!"
haha...
i think i punched away a number of times lol...
and i think they hated that...
so when that happens.... their team lose more morale...
and scoldings starts... aggressiveness too...
haha...
well... its over.. and we won...
the taste of success is very good...
i hope my team will use this experience to improve on their studies...
and when A level results is out... we will get the same taste yet again...
smile people!

right after the match ...
after i shaked everyone's hand...
got changed and meet my shooters to plan shooting clinic...
no elaboration...
ya.. we went off at 9...

tired me...
tomorrow going to sheena's house to do pw...
chiong ah!

later

A Learning Day

entering the school today with econs on my head...
chiong and do econs tutorial with sheena...
she comes early man..
haha

morning assembly was a happy one...
we got our medals...
and got a meaning speech by the principle himself...
i think people in the morning are blue...
so they may not understand what he was talking about...
haha..
shaked his hand and he asked...
are you a shooter before this?
for a very simple reason...
but should not elaborate much...

compo is killer man...
like primary school compo..
see picture one... haha
break was taken by it too...

other lessons are just normal...

council investiture...
principle gave a meaningful speech yet again...
oh man...
i love him
lol!
the replacing ceremony was so grand...
i thought..
haha
but sian...
most of the prestigous own by people who are.............
C:
lol...

went shooting range...
but left before we take our group photo...
sian!!!
annual book dont have my face liao...
sad man...
well...
that exchange a victory in the interclass netball...
haha

after the game...
after quite some time...
then i realise...
i got two scar man..
hahahaha..
sad man... those girls...
amazingly it wast pain...
i didnt even felt anything at all...
but its bleeding...
blood... haha...
after that...
quite some time again...
i realise i got three instead of two...
dame sad man... my beautiful body...

lol...
pull ups...
then study study study....
(but i wasnt... haha)

later

1S20

morning started.. with photo taking...
sucks...
everyone was doing their own things...
....

lessons are fine...
the greatest thing was that josephine's car blocked someone else's..
hahahahahhaha
so happy at that moment...

listening compre
a chocolate come and invigilate us....
he was like a road usher...
hand point here and there and everywhere...
generally the paper was easy..
like always theres some controversy-type question...
and girls like to talk about it........
lol

netball...
enter the game only with just minutes of knowledge of the game...
guan jie baron shuchen brigette kapeng hin hiang all done a good job...
1S23 was like scolding and scolding...
like wa thats fierce la...
nvm la..
we won le...
hahahahahhahahahaha
tomorrow match..
da jia jia you loh!

tomorrow morning mr ng said that we are getting our medals...
happy and sad...
cos getting a award... but with soft clappers...
sian...
tomorrow after the council thingy got photo shoot...
gonna say good luck to the j2s for their A level loh...

later

Shooting BBQ

there was a pw meeting yesterday...
but i went to shooting farewell party instead...
so guity now..
like push everything to the rest...
sad...

so yesterday met up with amelia timo shangyu mingyu henry and felix in the morning
went sheng song to buy stuff...
timo suggested to buy absolute...
haha...
then end up the few of us blur blur the whole day...
hahaha
then took cab to jovi's house...

i skip everything ...
about the marinating the food...
hahahahaha...
washing of hot dogs and carb stick was ok...
the sting ray and chicken thigh is the thing man lol!
the stingray ....
the way they cut it was that fierce one lor... haha
then amelia use her hand to marinate it...
with sambal... and her ring..
lol...
hmm this one still ok la...
is the chicken...
the first packet was the worst...
we took out the chicken...
washed it...
then decided to slices it...
and to take off the bone...
after much hard work...
we only manage to take out two of the thigh bones...
so .. mission failed...
we went back to the tap..
to wash the chicken then marinate it...
yi ke bu xiao xin...
amelia being drunk drunk like that..
made few of the chicken dropped on to the washing platform!!!!
hahahahahahahaha
so sorry man... but we did wash it hahahahaha
haha...
thats about the marinating part...

then when almost everyone a arrived liao...
we start fire ...
everything..
mr ng and ms lin soon arrived too...
eat eat eat...
drink drink drink...
relaxing that time...
play ball throw here and there...
around the pool...
and i was so happy that they all plotted me..
and thrown me down the pool.. man...
later they say... new captain go in ... so old one also must go in...
jookee eventually end up in the pool too...
end up me jookee timo charles amelia shangyu mingyu and lennon were down...
haha...

overall the bbq was fun la...
it would be better it lennon was to do his job...
sad man...

received shuqi's email...
dont know why...
i felt that people will be very efficient if theres reward...
in this case...
the level 3 CIP...
...........
shuqi... if you read this...
no offence ah.. haha...
btw... you did a good job...
C:

am i a good leader?
...................................

Parent's Night

what a day...
sweat it out during pe...
the first lesson...
peaceful lessons of chemistry tutorial and maths lecture...
mr ng took over the lecture ..
haha
then lunch time...
ate laksa
woohoo...
then when to wait for mrs phay in the paging room...
felt like an idoit when i came out and saw her together with my classmates...
so
lol
for back my results...
got ranking points of 58...
think is the next on the list under sheena in my class...
70 points mans... sheena...
omg man... audrey and oswald are also...
eeeeeeeeeeeeee
lol
went to gallery to relax and do chinese...
finished...
weekend no homework liao...
pw nia...
after resting... went back to the concourse and started pw...
joanne was kind enough to help us buy bubble tea...
after like 30mins...
she came back with all our drinks..
but accidentally smashed hin hiang's
hahahaha
she even dropped onto the floor and laugh out loud...
hahaha
at 3.30..
when to a release-stress lecture...
jin bin was high man...
lol...
had fun during the pw lecture by lo...
but i dont see how useful the piece of paper is...
and the whole one hour...
one page of material nia...
what a waste of time...
when shooting range after that with wan yin...
the gate was not open yet...
didnt managed to shoot today though the range was open later...
other of the j1s are being suited up...
oh man... conpetition begins!
went to gallery again to meet jim clauz...
watched brigette commanded her girls...
she was that cool...
lol...
talk talk talk... 5.45...
went in the hall and talk talk talk again...
there was lots of refreshments outside the hall...
haha... jim managed to ask susan to chop some for us...
hahaha...
after all 6 of my classmate's parent arrived...
we went off...

tomorrow is farewell party for the j2s at jovi's house
hope its going to be fun!..

Completed!

RAW
GP P1 - 20/50
GP P2 - 24/50
Chinese - 58/100
Maths - 46/50
Chemisty - 46.9/80
Econs P1 - 7/20
Econs P2 - 14/25
Physic - 44.5/80

i will smile
C:

What am i?

there are so much things going on in my head...
so confusing...
so tired...
so sad
so angry...
i am...

normally people talk to me...
to let go whatever holding them back...
after that they seems to be happy and relax...
when i see them like that...
im even happier...
haha

results now is saddening...
for me....

i have almost no time for my families...
buddies and friends too...

school ...
man...

dear dear...
also lesser time...

money ...
not enough...
im a movie freak you know...
sad that i also eat alot

somehow im troubled...

so confused...
i think i only feel good with deardear...
and perhaps talking to lydia...

tomorrow pe..
gonna let myself go..

+

Incompleted

gp 44/100
chinese 58/100
maths 92/100
chem 46.9/100
econ ?
physic ?

oh man...

Tears`

nic and jk got their personal best today..
nic got 564
jk got 547...
i got 534...

was ranked 4th from the buttom of the list...
and if i could do better...
sr will get the north zone silver....
mr ng and ms lin was alright with my result...
and happy for the j2s...
but im sad...
real sad...
even cried in the 854 while going home....

gonna need some time...

Shoot For Identity!

in 14 hours time...
yishun safra country club...
a clear significant moment...
SRJC
will make it!

Shoot!

The Past Few Days

friday..
h1 phy was ok... some stupid questions...haha..
after that was econs...
then few of us when hougang plaza to play pool...
play play play...
was fun.. lol.. i won alot... :P
but i play until forget the time...
rushed back to school...
for shooting...
mr ng gave us free and easy training..
just get the feeling back...
the sighting was ok~...
then into the feeling thing..
nic and jk was boring... so they decided to play mini games...
asked me to join in... and i did...
so.. thats about it...

went on to orchard cineleisure to meet aud joa and darren..
so sad...
i was the first..
and the last person came 2 hours later than ME...
sad man...
im a waiting man...
laughed alot... esp with aud around hahahahahahahaha...
watched transformers at 1.40am... woohoo...
ended at 4... took cab with joa and darren... reach home at 4.30...
chiong chiong chiong... slept at 5....

woke up on the same morning at 10....
shit!... was late to meet dear...
so change...
meet at 11....
chiong chiong chiong.... met her and went to marina square...
for a simple reason...
movie!
the show is again...
transformers... haha...
missed the sweet corn in marina square man.. haha... dame nice...
then send her home...

went to meet jun liang...
at kallang...
walked to national studium...
the crowd was huge man...
we... walked walked walked...
to find a wonderful spot... for me to enjoy the fireworks...
and for him to snaps some good pics....
we found the spot...
but was still early...
decided to go to a nearby mall for dinner...
ate burger king...
dame shoik...
then when pool again...
reached the counter...
the person said...
are you two NSmen?
wahahahahahahahaha
jun liang was dame happy to hear that... lol...
played for an hour and paid the NSmen rate...
lol
walked back to the spot...
we was so noob!... two person trying to set the tripod and the cam... wahahahahh
waited and waited...
talk talk talk..
finally after like 5 hours for me and 10 hours for him...
we exprience like 30s of firework...

dame sad...
but how... lol... went home after that....




tomorrow training...
haha.. youth day man...
gonna make full use of that...
wednesday.... aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
SHOOT FOR IDENTITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

later

:C

im dead for the moment...