NEXT Pls!

Two weeks is enough for the two months

Yea. Awesomeness is within me hohoho!

Esp when you start to gain insights

It aint that bad afterall

Did some online matriculation

Got some numbers

Printed some forms on citizen connect

Pay some fees

Secure shern as roomies

Have piles of notes from teeyan

Receive some letters full of orientation camp flyers

Yea! Its time to rock NTU yo!

Just hope everything will be fine for school

Its will be work hard and play harder in uni!

Knee is not fully recovered

But the time has come to surf on the wave again

Hopefully i dont end up at an handicapped at the end of tomorrow

Yea! Later

rehab

im into this addiction..
suffering for almost a week now
im glad that my conditions are improving now..
addiction is a scary thing..
it really drive people crazy..
you must really go through to understand how addiction victims feel
i learnt from watching the tv that all kind of addiction is similar in a way that all of them affects the same nerve..
no matter if it is gambling alcohol smoking and drugs
for me.. i think its the most common one.. which is not well known as an addiction..
as an addict pretty much one will feel empty most of the time..
the sensation sucks…
now that im in it.. i can understand why people starts picking up smoking and drinking habits after
these two are the two options that are more widely available to all
people tell me give myself some time.. some time to recover from it..
i guess my progress is going good..
im taking medications haha.. very abstractly..
both in pills and going to for rehabs sessions..
taking it slow.. small dosage each time..
as time drags longer.. i guess i will regain myself back in no time..
along with the rehab..
i suddenly started dreaming alot..
almost every night..
some nights i end up really happily with her..
some nights i had an accident and just die.. spirit came out and see all my loved ones on my wake
some nights im just an awesome bachelor who once lived
and for each nights.. i can dream of many different ones just in one night
religion is really some thing..
am i a Buddhist or am i free
after talking to chevy darren and ray.. i guess im a free..
im just a follower of Buddhist learnings..
only my father was a real full Buddhist..
so actually i can eat beef? hahah.. some day i will go to some holy centaury to find it out myself.. before i really miss out on my fate
finally went out with sec buds again..
chevy brought candice along..
looking at them somehow just remind me of the previous 2 months..
hai.. im happy for them.. but deep inside i know im broken..
i replace those sadness with my signature smile to bless them..
“When im sad, i stop being sad, I feel awesome instead. True story~” Barney
haha.. i remembered this statement vividly from himym
seriously.. managed to do it too..
im awesome C:

Break the Blue Moon

emotions overtook me
so much have happened..
one event is not enough.. my havainas slipper also abandon me..
then my knee have to give way too..
its the kind of feeling i never felt before..
or maybe im just weak la.. haha.. i was thinking if i get this kind of injury during a war.. i will just go all out and die as a honourable diver..
i have really awesome friends around me..
seriously appreciate them to be around me..
Aud Rina Krys Gwen Angus Dbag Squek Tiong Nat Shern Lai
a big thank you for your time la mates..
come to think of it.. my awesome friends doesnt stop there..
it has been long since i last meet up with my sec buds
ray darren kenny chevy all NS and ong is work and bf.. hai.. when are we going to meet again guys?… my margarita is waiting know..

i haven cried since the death of my father and the end of hell week..
yesterday i burst out.. i look at my knee and ask myself why all this come to me now?.. is this karma or something.. did i do anything wrong?
hai.. i really have much to think.. and much not to think haha..
woke up at that standard timing as usual..
knowing that i have to go for physio..
one tiny part of me actually felt scare.. scare of the unpredictable pain that i will feel during the treatment..
of cos i wish someone can accompany me for it.. but people is either busy or just not that convenient come over…
felicia suppose to come with me.. but sleep got her priority and i understand it.. she came after my treatment..
as i was lying there.. i look at my knee again and thought of what angus said about soccer players’ injuries.. YEA.. just wack only!
the sinseh is really experience siao already..
i guess he have do too many of similar cases.. until he also sian..
its pain.. but not that much.. bearable and short.. next moment i know im sitting outing with for fel to come already..
went to OCBC for some banking stuff today..
it made me realise that i should start planning for the next 4 years of uni life.. finance hall and commitments..
hectic life will eat me up and most likely disappear from non-NTU events.. i really hope i can still go for netball in NUS C:
gonna take a break from work.. and social activities for awhile..
now that my knee is in this condition
my bed is like a hospital bed already.. just that its more cosy.. no nurse no drips.. and no visitors just me and alot of cushions..
i miss my NDU bunk setup man.. haha

The Last Lecture

Im living still haha.
Im on the same bus just like every working day.
That day i finally finished reading mars and venus. Haha its ironic because the book suppose to teach the reader how to maintain relationship with ones partner. And i just fallout of one.
Its ok i guess. Sadness has its time in me. But i still believe in fate. If my kids are going to sunday school. They will eventually.

So today at this moment, i opened up a new book - a gift from my beloved Mrs Mah-Pow. Its called 'the last lecture'. I figured she knows i wont be going bookstores and buy good books to read. I did try honestly speaking. But i just dont know what books i should read. Anyway, i saw the note writen by Mrs Mah to me and i felt really loved. This is the kind of message only passionate teachers will write. I will read this book and learn as much as i can. No matter how slow i read, i will finish it C:



Moblie blogging is really something. Having a facebook account to update status dont appeal to me anymore.
I should be blogging more often with those additional percentages left on my phone. Haha. Time to really reflect upon my life

Lets get inspired!

Plastic bag

I tried my best. That was all. Thats the end. I wonder if there is any slight hope. I can say im prepared, but this is just too much for me. Tears had to give way.

Its short. Sweet. But impactful. Just like the fireworks i love to look.



May the spirit of the pheonix be with me C: