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whats with the difference in font man.. testing~

studying in NUS Utown now.
say what.. really nice environment here
locals here really dress nicer than back in NTU
foreigners is still the same
study areas are as packed as well
oh well

later

Eutectic?

7am

7.30am

8am

9am. i dont seem like im going to be waking up

but i was awake

back to those days of terrible sleeps

need to drag myself out of the bed

its a chore

cant help it

today i lose it.. no more studying for me

i cant do it anymore

but what else it there to do?

i felt confident about the exams

but what if it dont go my way

yet again.. it somehow usually go my way

haha

im worried

worried about what can become of my knee

tomorrow i will head to NUH and tell them i want the surgery

31st july or 1st august

1st angust? haha.. what a day uh?

i feel that i need to do it as early as possible

dont want to drag

sometimes i asked myself why did i sign up as a programmer?

but what if i didnt? haha

i will be more of an inferior person

exchange exchange exchange

is such a thing undergrads wants to chase for

the global experience

the moment you have to say bye to your family and friends and out for months in a foreign land

mixed feeling indeed

for girls.. i think thats when they will truly learn about independence

there is still this part of me back in camp

back in ndu and air force

i imagine myself being a specialise and commanding all these young chaps who just got enlisted

and telling them about my story as a 31st batch trooper

i imagine myself learning how to fly a new aircraft side by side with lai

and leaving for dive trips with my best synced dive buddy

but im here in ntu

studying and wasting money

i begin to see why people like bill gates and steve jobs dropped out of college

degree dont benefit these people at all

but who am i to say i match up to them?

thats the dream we all should have..

thing of the possibilities out there even without a degree and an university life

i miss Bedok South

ICARE

i miss SRJC

to learn to serve

i miss NDU

nothing stands in our way

later

Revived

Took out my shoe. Put on my navy singlet and i ran. I ran the park connector that led me to east coast park. There. I sat on the huge rock for god knows how long it was. The sensation was good. I was revived there. That very moment. White washes bubbling up on the rock. Kids playing behind me. Rain drops on my face. All those dull in my was cleared away. I wasnt wrong that i missed the sea. Now i know. I cant live without it. Without having to enjoy sea breeze once in awhile. It that kind of relief that i felt. Blow all the troubles away.

Good run. Good weather. Later

Freshman Year

today is the end of study week for semester 2 of my year one

its has been quite a journey..

begun with sports camp

then hall camp

then sem one and sem two

life in NTU had good and bad times

new friends from all sorts of backgrounds...

some times i wonder if a degree will really bring me somewhere

somewhere that i will settle my life with

and work there until my last breath

things that we need to do to get our grades

what if one day there are no need for such a grading system?

the world should gone haywire

no one will ever study hard for exams and all

thats the sad truth

one thing i learnt from NDU is all humans are slut..
take ippt for example.. 9.14 is gold.. most people will just aim for that and not a lesser time

put this into perspective

GPA 5 seems unreachable for most of us

but what does GPA 5 really means

some times i asked myself why people including myself are chasing for this..

im tired of finding the answer..
yes the result will look good for resume indeed..
but what else does it truly matter?

work hard and enjoy life should be the emphasis

ill try to live by it...
too much influence from noises around

be surprised how these noises changes people

not blogging is not good for me

i kept thoughts in my mind and cant unleash them

cant organise them properly

still recall those days i blog almost everyday

my mind is always clear and straight and things and decision

but somehow with the advances of technology..

iphone and ipad and all..

i became much too lazy to even touch the app in my phone

sense a need to get back my thoughts in alignment

need to

end of year 1 with 5 papers..

it will end at 2nd May

after that we all will have nothing to do

have to start planning stuff to do after

if not we all will feel the void in us..

no need to touch books and notes anymore

that kind of feeling

feeling of freedom and lost at the same time

suck

ironic it is

luckily i have trips reservist and camps to look forward to

and finally the day i should start getting my formal sporting life back

ACL reconstruction

let me fly through those fields and climb those walls

conquering all kind of obstacles again

i need it

ACL save me from my misery!

Hooyah!

A high step

NIS is over. I got my open cat team gold. But somehow when im back here reflecting. I knew i could do better. Oh well. I guess its good enough to maintain the performance with that level of stress. Besides winning medals. I also got the chance to observe our team singapore shooters perform. Watching them shoot has a different kind of take away.

Took my sweet time and careless of all other stuff happening. Peace and joy. Me and myself only in the range. I scored 582.

I know i can do better.
I will.

A roller coaster ride

I asked myself if im prepared for the shoot today. Then i said to myself. In always ready. Mao xin pulled himself out and place me for the first team event. That level of expectation is... Consumming.

Preparation time was a mess. I cant draw my rifle because i was wearing slippers. And the armour guy also mess up on where was NTU's weapons. So the ten minutes was just a standing hopelessly kind of moment. Oh well. Did my sighters as productive as i can be. First series was depressing. Trying as much to follow what coach has been trying to tell me. But the competition mood total had me. No chance at all. 2 8s that i will never forget.

It wasnt all smooth and sweet there after. Got self-mind fucked big time when i realise the 20 over shooters behind me were pistolers. And only 3 rifler at jc and secondary level. Obviously they will shoot faster. Like alot faster than me. So if everything goes as what i expected. I will have 15 mins of fame for my last series. Zzz. What the shit was i thinking seriously. End up. I finished 6 mins before time and some pistolers ended 20s beofre time. Lol. What a joke.

Personal honour to be top of air rifle man cat for the day since only those few rifle man shot. Wait to see my scores drop by each day. I know i dod my best. All the best for Jonathan and Alexander. May us clinch our own NIS title!

NTU spirit!

NIS 2012

After months in the NTU Shooting team. I finally have my first shooting related shirt.
As host and shooting isnt that easy. People say thats a home advantage. But it not in this situation. Safra yishun is home of all shooters. Especially the national team and other school that doest have a shooting range in their campus. Nis. Im in the first team by chance. I hope for the best. Wish me for the best. And let me have the best.